erm.. PS: this is a really long post... and if ur planning to read it, please read it to the bottom.. or otherwise dont read it at all.. and i hope this wont be a gossip matter among u guyz instead just keep it to yourself.. i wanted to share it out with u guyz bout my experience in camp.. and i feel like that i needed to share it with you ppl..if u guyz like kinda find it weird.. just dont ask why, wanna ask wait for school to start or just leave a message at the cbox there.. thanks..
shalom! my dear brothers and sisters in Christ..i am a Roman Catholic.. here i wish to share with you my experience during LSS Camp..everyone is welcome to read..^^
this camp is for those who are currently receiving the sacrament confirmation this year..and i and some of my camping buddies are.. confirmation is one of the 7 sacraments ..and also being confirmed to be the soldier of Christ.. the duty of the soldier of Christ.. is to defend the teaching of Christ... and defend your faith towards God..
BEFORE LSS CAMP
to be honest.. when i first step into camp.. i was a lost girl.. i dont even know where to go.. until someone guides me.. i was also confused.. not knowing what to do.. puzzled for no one is telling me what to do..then me, jennifer and brenda started settling down.. i could still remember the day that we were all waiting outside.. eventhough its raining we waited outside patiently for elaine.. we even went outside the gate to see her.. well, she finally came though.. and thats great..praise the lord that she managed to come.. to those who didnt came.. i think most of them either drop out or just went for some activities..
DURING CAMP
well, camp started smoothly.. then i looked at the schedule given.. wow, we had quite a packed schedule ..we had talks.. inner healing and baptism of the holy spirit..(i will explain bout this later in my post)and celebration.. i was really excited... then we were divided among our own groups.. me and sherlynn were in MAROON..while jennifer and elaine in DARK BLUE... brenda in RED.. eventhough brenda is the only one among us in a different group.. she is a group leader btw.. hahax.. then we had lunch, dinner... we had great lunch, breakfast and dinner... they served us quite well...
TALKS-REPENTENCE
during one of the talks.. there was a session that we were asked to write down our sins on a piece of paper and asked to pin it on the cross..after examining my conscience, i wrote all my sins down and not hiding anything..as it was my turn to pin it on the cross.. i felt really heavy and really guilty for the sins that i had commited.. and i will try my best to turn away from sins and go towards God.. i cried when i pinned my sins on the cross.. Jesus died for us on the cross.. and his blood washed our sins away.. and yet still here we are with the help of Satan's temptations.. commiting sins.. i felt really horrible and i just cried when i knelt down in front of the altar.. i felt sorry and guilty for i what i had done.. and i pray that i will try not to sin again.. but we are all humans.. it is our nature to sin.. as long as we REPENT... the road to heaven is always open to you..
BEFORE INNER HEALING
so just now i mentioned inner healing... well you must be asking what it is and what happened right? ok.. the thing bout inner healing is that.. letting God into your life and experience his great love.. you must be thinking this is impossible right? well believe it or not brothers and sisters in Christ.. nothing is impossible for God.. and he could do anything.. before inner healing.. we all are required to go for confession and counselling.. confession is an activity that you confess your sins to the priest which then he will listen to your sins and pray over you.. he then give you some penance.. penance is something needed to do to heal back your spiritual self.. to be concluded.. confession is an activity which is to seek forgiveness from God
after confession i felt sooo relieved! cause all these while.. all the sins that i have in myself is finally out of myself! ok then, now next is counselling.. counselling is just normal.. u talk to a person which he/she will give u some advise... i was been counselled by Sister Mary.. i feel much more comfortable with her.. so then she started talking to me... and i told her everything that was bothering me in the heart.. starting from school, family and pressure..friends.. soo many more.. there was one thing though she said that really touched my heart.. after telling all my problems.. she touched my shoulder and asked me to close my eyes.. and told me to think back the problems i had previosly and all the painful moments i had been through... and she said:" imagining Jesus is with you now.. what do u think he will be doing?" ... at this moment.. i was silent.. and i cried.. i was really touched by the words she said.. i dont know why i cried but i feel like to do so.. when i closed my eyes.. i saw Jesus comforting me and telling me not to be afraid.. i was really touched.. and i couldnt wait till inner healing started
INNER HEALING
like i said before that inner healing is about letting God into your life.. and also experiencing his great love.. so that night.. we went into Carmelite chapel.. and we sat down. The lights were out, and Aunty Magarette said some prayers.. as she said.. i heard there are some people crying LOUDLY.. WAILING.. i was really scared at that moment for i have no idea for what was going on.. believe it or not, but to all guyz out there... Father Vincent said :" a man who cries is a real man"... well then, it seems that there were a lot of "men" there..so guyz,wanna be a real man u gotta cry too u noe? and ya.. i admitted that i cried to.. i wasnt that kind of normally crying.. i wailed.. i cried like a small child.. i never cried like that before since i was like a kid.. normally when i cry like that is when my parents were out.. and everything.. haiz.. so i cried
when we were asked to close our eyes.. that time i really did experience God's Loves.. and i was really blessed to have that remarkable experience..when i closed my eyes.. i was focusing on Jesus himself..and then i was all alone in the dark.. then a bright light appeared..and a man with a white robe was walking towards me.. and i was quite confused.. then i looked at him.. it was too bright and i looked down.. he grabbed me in the arm and i stood up.. still with my heads down.. so as i looked up.. he said to me..:" Mallory, dont be afraid.. turn away from sin and follow me.. please come back home my child.. "
just at that moment after he said that.. i just stood there .. breaking down and crying my hearts out.. and then i heard someone's palm pressing over me gently.. praying over me.. but i still had the vision of me and Jesus together.. he held out his hand and touched me, comforted me.. from then.. i realised that that my previous heartbreaks.. painful moments.. were all gone and its surrendered to God ..after the experience i opened my eyes for a while.. i saw the girl behind me fainted.. and some guyz fainted too.. (normally we dont call it fainted.. but more likely spirit is at rest)
but the one thing is bout forgiveness.. throughout the camp i learnt bout forgiveness..but during inner healing we were asked to forgive others.. i am so readily willing to forgive others.. but there is something that is preventing me from fogiving them.. i kept saying that i want to forgive them in my heart.. but i just simply cant.. because i remember all the things they did.. and i tried my best to forgive them for what they did to me.. whatever they did to me.. is somehow unforgivable.. but i needed to forgive them.. i tried to forgive them and forget bout the past and move on.. so when i thought bout it.. i find it really difficult.. and i needed to take some time to forgive them..and it isnt to forgive others just like that.. if we are asked to forgive others.. we need to say it from the heart.. and truly meant it.. so inner healing was one of the best experience i had throughout my 15 years of life.. since then i felt really AWESOME! Praise the Lord!
AFTER INNER HEALING
after inner healing we went out of the chapel.. we were still there with our eyes red.. all of us camping buddies then shared our experience and we also comforted one another.. and we all shared our remarkable experience with Jesus... and we all touched each other and cried AGAIN..
then we had night cap before we slept.. during the night.. when i lay flat in my sleeping bag.. and eventhough the floor was hard, but that doesnt bother me.. i thought about what Jesus had told me.. and i will try my best to turn away from Sins.. and go back to God.. i had a really good sleep that day.. and i felt really energised the other day.. eventhough energised but still my eyes were kinda swollen after the crying incident.. hahax..
BAPTISM OF THE HOLY SPIRIT
ok then.. today wasnt really bad.. i was actually afraid that i might break down again.. seeing soo many people crying like what had happened in the inner healing.. so we all gathered at the chapel and i stood up and prayed over a girl.. she cried and i can feel her shaking.. soo then it was my turn to sit and being prayed over.. the gurl who was praying over me , her spirit rested and i was quite terrified.. and some guyz actually just lay flat on the floor... as i prayed.. i started crying..AGAIN!.. (as expected)
i felt my head really heavy..as in really heavy, i find it difficult to sit up straight.. and i felt my whole body was light as a feather.. i felt like i was floating.. but my head was really heavy.. so my head kept on tiliting backwards.. and i laid my palms on my thigh.. and i find that my palms and legs are really really numb and i couldnt move them at all.. i tried to sit straight to my original position but i just cant!! seriously though.. so i started crying over and over again.. my camping buddies cried too though.. but they werent as bad as i am..
then i just wished that someone would carry me and let me lie on the floor for a while.. but i really wanted to pray to the Lord so i just continue to pray and spoke in tongues.. i kept praying and my head kept tilting backwards and my hands and legs are getting even numb by the second.. i could still remember that there was a part that i spoke in tongues.. and i spoke loudly and with fear.. then Aunty Margarette approached me and said:" Mallory, look at Jesus.. Jesus loves you.. and always remember that." as soon as she said that.. i felt much better.. and more relieved.. and cried still for i was sooo blessed that Jesus is always by my side and in fact never left me.. Praise the Lord!!!
so before i continued.. you will asking me what is talking in tongues?? ya, its talking with your tongue of course.. duh~.. and yup.. the main thing bout talking in tongues is that you are using your spiritual self to communicate with God.. different people tongue in different language.. and normally when i tongue.. i dont know what im saying.. when i praise the Lord.. i just kept on continuing to talk in tongues continually without stopping.. and u noe whats soo great bout this?? Satan dont like it and he cant interfere for he doesnt understand! hahax!
ACTIVITY DAY!
during activity day, we were supposed to go to the beach and exercise.. but it was raining.. so how unfortunate of us.. we went to St. Joseph Hall to gather and play.. we girls thought that we were the earlier ones.. for we didnt see the guyz yet.. but we lost.. the guyz were all gathered there already..there were plenty of activities.. there were untagling yourself.. blinfolding..trust fall..mexican wave.. and many more!
the activity i enjoyed most is trust fall.. u were asked to stand on a table and fall flat on your back where everyone will catch you.. ahahaha.. that isnt funny u guyz .. i noe there are some of u out there smirking and laughing and of course i know i am quite heavy..i was actually afraid at first.. i was afraid that they couldnt catch me.. so i went up the last few.. when it was finally my turn.. so as usual i landed at my butt first.. so thats why i needed to trust people more.. and need faith in them.. Brother Clement helped me to feel comfortable by saying a few words.. then i stood on the table.. and looking backwards.. i saw all my sisters in Christ were all ready to catch me.. so i just fell back and laid flat on the hands catching me.. i was actually relieved.. and glad... this activity taught me a lot.. its to say that when we fall into problems.. we need to always be there to support our friends. .. and also .. when we are problemed.. we should just fall back .. and God will be there to support us.. and all we gotta do is to let God handle settle the rest
got blindfolded.. we gurls were blinfolded.. and the guyz took care of us by not letting us somehow wonder off too far.. i think i knocked a guy somehow.. sorry to whoever you are... hahax...
ever since inner healing.. i started to praise the Lord with all my heart and with all my soul.. by raising my hands, and talking in tongues..( some sort of talk that somehow which you could communicate with God.. and no one understands what your trying to say and even you yourself wont be able to understand.. i was really blessed to be given the gfits of tongue.. so i could praise the Lord even more... me, elaine, brenda and jennifer were raising our hands out high praising the Lord.. and i had never praised the Lord like this before.. PRAISE THE LORD!
PREPERATION FOR CELEBRATION NITE
well then, camp was almost over.. so we held out an activity together.. i was in the MAROON group.. and were assigned to go for dancing and singing.. i went for singing of course.. coz i am not that sort of person who liked dancing.. maybe a little but not too HOT d dance.. i dont do hot dance.. coz i dont like it thank you very much..from the camp.. i met many new friends.. one of them that i remembered still is DOMINIC.. he is a band member from ST.COLUMBAS.. and i felt really blessed to have met him.. he is a really nice guy, ready to give out a helping hand.. and i felt really blessed.. i dont know why but i just felt it that way.. i remembered still when i called him my brother.. he was supposed to call me sister.. but instead he called me aunty...==... made me sounded soo old.. and we all sang together and Dominic sang beautifully.. and i really loved it how the way he sang.. then i remembered that we had dinner me and camping buddies sat together with him.. and we started sharing bout school life.. and Jessica Jong was there talking with Dominic bout band life.. i felt sooo happy being around with all of them together..
CELEBRATION NITE
celebration nite.. hmm.. there was a session of face drawing and some of the gurls somehow abused it and draw on my hands and face.. WHICH CAUSED LOADS OF PIMPLES ON MY FACE!! (PS: I DIDNT BRING MY ESKINOL THEN==) so we were the first group to perform.. and the gurls danced and we sang some songs.. the whole hall become sooo high that everyone was cheering and jumping about as if that this was a concert... and they even did mexican wave.. i felt soo touched and soo happy and i jumped too of course.. then as we were about to finish our performance.. we hugged each other... despiting that whether its a gurl or boy.. we just hugged..and i felt soo happy!! and there were many performance still... and u noe? Brenda was a director that night for her group.. she conducted a play.. which i found it really really AMAZING! great job Bren!! u did it well!! i wish i was in a play.. but its ok still.. i enjoyed myself.. and there was this guy called Clinton.. and he sang out the 10 commandments.. which made every gurl in the hall screaming !! and also highing! hahax! i really enjoyed the play the most!
TALKS
i remembered one of the talk is DATING WITH PURPOSE AND PURITY.. and i was kinda ==... why talk this sort of topic?? then after the talk i learnt soo much and i was really blessed.. one of them that really had made sensed is that :" its not suitable to date when ur still schooling because its much more wiser to focus on studies first then to think about this, if you are dating.. for the guyz you must treat your girlfriend like your sister and for the gurls treat your boyfriend like your brother.. and dont do anything stupid together.. "and the one that really made sensed was:" God had chosen who are our MR and MRS in the future.. we should always pray for our future MR and MRS so that he will remain chastity and faithful to God.. "
LAST DAY OF CAMP LER!
in the morning.. i was really tired.. and jennifer was waking me up... coz she slept next to me.. and i woke up and went back to sleep.. hahax..then she really waked me up by throwing her pillow at me!! ==..after the talks in the morning.. we had lunch.. then we sit at one of the area together...thinking of the good times we had.. and Dominic sat by my side and we started talking..and talking.. bout school life..and what we did.. Praise the Lord that i met him.. coz i just dunno why.. i felt really really really blessed to have met him..then we gurls took a picture together.. ar.. good times.. good moments.. i love the camp a lot.. and it had really taught me sooo much.. i wish the camp would never end.. but like what the others always say.. even the best things that happened in your life will end.. nothing lasts forever.. and i really cherish each moment i had spent with my friends especially Dominic because he is not from our school..
i had met sooo many friends in camp and i am still yet blessed to have met Dominic and i dont know why still till today.. haiz.. i still remembered when we sang the song we all hugged each other.. and i dont know why still i cried knowing that this isnt the end and i will be able to see them again.. i hugged one of my group members.. and i started crying.. as i hugged her.. all of the good times that were happening in camp flashes back in my mind.. and i started crying.. she hugged me and also comforted me.. and i felt much more better.. i think Dominic knew i was crying so after the whole "drama" was over.. he went over to me and made silly faces to make me laugh.. i had a good laugh though..thank you very much.. i will always remember you, and i will never forget the good times we had together..thank you my fellow brothers and sisters in christ.. this is the best camp i had throughout my 15 years of life and the best thing that happened is i met soo many friends, especially Dominic.. and inner healing and baptism of the holy spirit..
PRAISE THE LORD!
