this might be the last...or will it?

after long times not blogging.. me got really bored..

still preparing form sem test..

thinking bout dropping chinese..

friendship problem...

so many things going on, makes me go kablooiy... uh.. life is so frustrated when ur dealing with this kind of problem..



i had a friend once, who treated me as a friend.. until then, he took my friendship for granted..wats worsts, he completely turned me down.. i have been living in his shadow for so long.. then one day, i spoke to him on the phone with tears streaming down my cheeks.. to think of it, he is not worth of my tears.. so i hope this friendship we had is through.. i always treated him as a friend, someone who i could look up to. someone who actually cared bout me, who is always there for me when is needed.. ya, he is the one. as time passed, i became a nobody. i become no one.. my life is full of emptiness.. until another friend took me in to be his best friend.. i was so lucky and thankful to have him as my friend.. somebody who actually treated me as somebody.. and most importanty not invisible.. he cherished my friendship.. eventhough he doesnt show it, but i know that deep down in his heart he do.. he has tonnes of friends, he doesnt need me.. so stop living in the past maminix! stop thinking too much and get on with your own life.. he has his own life and i have mine.. so thats all.. this friendship between me and him better comes to an end before things get ugly.. oo i dun wan that to happen.. its ugly enough, so lets just set our priorities and get over with it..



ya.. i've been thinking of dropping class.. to think that chinese teacher actually trusted me and believed in me... if i just turn her down, she will be so dissapointed in me. i cant do that, eventhough i hate her.. God said: "love your enemies as how i have loved you" i dun really really hate her, its just that there are some certain times when she really knows how to drive a person crazy.. i am not so particular bout the teacher.. haiz, the teacher is bad enough, now with the subject? i cant cope with that.. not anymore..well, i used to but now i cant. i am doing this for the best of myself and i cant do this just for the sake of my friends.. ya i wont be with you, but we still could meet up during lunch.. rite? dont show me a long face, u should be happy for me.. ! ian.. save me a spot..

well, if this happens, there will be quite a lot of things that i will lose.. my best friends, well.. i cant do this for the sake of friends... friends come by.. they might not be by your side.. but they will always be at your heart! well, watever my decision is... i am going to reconsider it all right.. but.. once said there is no turning back..

nothing much to say..
so bored..
how la?