i grow up too fast!

i am alive..

i always am..

i have been living and alive for 14 years and 2 days..

all i ever wanted..

i wanted too many things..

things which cant be bought in stores..

i wanted to have happiness..

i want to have loads of friends..

i want to the sun to shine everyday..

i wanted barney to come to life...

i want my beloved stuffed animal to talk to me..

i want my imaginary friend to come to life..

i always wanted to play with purple and brown...

i want to many things..

sadly, all those things i wanted just cant come true..

i was little back then...

as i look upon a basin..

which i couldn't reach when i was little..

now.. the basin is too short for me to use..

i remember i had to ask my teacher to carry me to wash my little hands..

as i grew up..

i tend to put all my wants aside and try to never remember it..

but those are sweet memories of my childhood..

i wanted so many things..

now to think of it..

all my wants are very very precious to me..

why have i put it aside for so long without even thinking bout it!

i grew up too fast!

i want to go back becoming a 5 year old again!

i dont want to grow up! yet..

things i want to experience when i was a kid is not fullfilled..

i want to swim in a pool of chocolate..

i wanted the trees to be made up of ice-cream!

i want the mountains to be made out of layers of cake!

i want the clouds to rain cookies!!!

oh..that will be sweet..

i think i am getting too old for that..

but there is no harm to imagine it rite?

i dont want to be mature!

turn back time...

to when i was little..

if God could turn back time for me..

i would give up anything just to enjoy my childhood again..

i want to grow up..

but i think i am growing up too fast!

slow down time!

i want to watch cartoon!

i even use to think there are monsters under my bed..

i was afraid of many things..

namely..

• electronic devices-my mum says that the plugs are vampires which sucks blood
• lightning-my mum also told me that when you're naughty.. God will struck you down with his lighning..
• water-i have phobias of people drowning.. i hate to go into pools unless i have a float..
• other people@strangers- well, i dont know them..

kinda dumb huh?

to be afraid of such things..

i grew up too fast!!!

i dont want to grow up anymore!!!

maybe a little more then stop ..

give me a period of time to enjoy back my childhood!

next year.. PMR..

after PMR then two years then i am off to college..

then uni..

whoa whoa whoa... slow down..

but its true!

if i could turn back time..

i would resit my UPSR and get straight A's//

i would correct my mistakes which i shouldn't have commited..

i would have a chance to play with my pet dog-cranberry again one last time..

i want so many things..

is it too late to ask for it again?