Like I said, Life is difficult.

No one said it was going to be easy.

Yeah, it's true.

Now, Hope is all I can cling on to.

I came to you,

Out of nowhere,

Like the wind,

Knocking on your door.

Entering inside,

I see new faces.

I see smiles,

but not yours.

I came up to you

You were frightened in the inside,

but you never show it out.

Little did you know,

I was frightened too.

I never did say I'm giving up.

But I'll push myself to a whole new level.

The biggest challenge in life,

can be solved if you believe hard enough. :)

Everytime I closed my eyes,

I could only see your face.

When I'm not thinking about anything,

I could only think about you.

When I open my eyes,

All I can see is you.

I'm going to change you.

It's not impossible.

Nothing is impossible,

till you tried till the very end.

Sometimes, I do wanna blame myself. You know, taking up probation. It's like.. why did I even wanted to do this? Being one of the most HATED people in school. Well, I do admit sometimes my ego is a little over, but then, I'm constantly telling myself. Every step I've fallen, I'll get up and try again. I'm not going to call quits, I'm going to go through this till the very end. I believe I can, I believe I will.

It's not easy handling people.

You can't control them .. fact number 1.

You can't make them listen to you.... fact number 2.

You can't make them obey every single instructions you make... fact number 3.

My heart beat races,

Sweat dripping down my cheeks,

Fear clenched my teeth.

Unable to say a word.

Oh well, I was really really terrified and afraid at first. But now, I admit I am a little more daring now. Well, at least better than last week. Rome wasn't built in a day.. it all goes back to how TIME will change us :)

To all the other probationary out there.. I hope that eventhough you face many of those offenders who say or do stuff which made your self esteem lowered and confidence shattered, just remember.. Do NOT be afraid :) If FEAR is the one that's clenching you from doing all this.. be brave :)

Just like that,

The walls of my heart,

which once was surrounded with fear,

heard my sudden call.

Fear slowly disintegrate.

And there is none No More.

I stepped out,

Feeling proud and victorious,

Never again will I be shrewed,

I closed my eyes,

And I told myself..

I CAN.

And, I did

Fear.

After all of this is over,

You no longer conquer me.

No longer will you rule me.

I set the rules now.

I MAKE the decisions.

Fear.

Leave me alone.

I'm doing what's right.

If you can't except that.

Just leave.

I mustered a smile,

Because I know,

I feel good,

I feel awesome,

And my fears are dying away slowly.

I know,

I CAN do it :)

and I will

I'll never let you down. Not after what you have done for me. I won't do that to you. I promise :)