Thursday, September 25, 2008

showing off the stupidty..and some memories

videos are at the bottom! dont miss it! i should have uploaded it a few months ago, but as long as the memories are still in my heart!~
me and ci hui
our messy room

goin to parkson on sports day
after room service cannot find my shoe, haha, under the bed.. lol much?!
christine, me, mel, ci hui, tina, jacq, joyce.. at wisma sanyan


stupid rite?
memories at park city

OUR FEET!



ai ling, feli and me!


a video that u must watch!





Tuesday, September 23, 2008

JP? freaky..but cool

today it is official.. we are announced as the probationary prefect.. its like OMG~ wow.. somehow i kinda agrees with sonia's mum.. maybe we all arent ready for this stuff.. still, its worth a try.. you will never know unless u try..

in class, we were like told to go and see Miss Tiong.. and we were like wAAT? why go see her? i din do anything wrong.. so.. we, mostly i, were so freaked out.. well, not that much. so.. 10am. we have to do our hair properly, ties up..(i hate it when my ties up.. make me feel so asphysiated..) well, the first impression is always important..

poor me.. i have to like somehow sit near the air-corn.. it was so cold! justine said that my nose turned red.. okay.. not funny so stop laughing. oh ya.. forgotten to tell you, the purpose we went there, its more likely to be a small briefing bout junior prefect.. dunno why i even get chosen.. so ..somehow deep down inside me, is it worth doing this? how did i get into this mess.. i really dunno why i applied for it.. sound pretty stupid huh? well, i cant deny that.. i was kinda stupid back then..

so, enough bout stupidity.. lets talk something more likely ..hmm.. just change the topic..

so.. after all that junior prefect thingy.. *sighs*..then there is chinese. teacher was like counting every 23 people.. luckily i didn't get picked or asked.. phew.. well.. my heart was like beating in madness.. to think of her counting is like counting the time for u to die.. u noe that kind of feeling? hope u do..

still the thought of dropping chinese is still wondering round my mind.. should i or not? well, i want to drop chinese.. but..there are loads of things that i will lose..

hmmm....

thinking..

oh well, that time only think..

Sunday, September 21, 2008

this might be the last...or will it?

after long times not blogging.. me got really bored..

still preparing form sem test..

thinking bout dropping chinese..

friendship problem...

so many things going on, makes me go kablooiy... uh.. life is so frustrated when ur dealing with this kind of problem..



i had a friend once, who treated me as a friend.. until then, he took my friendship for granted..wats worsts, he completely turned me down.. i have been living in his shadow for so long.. then one day, i spoke to him on the phone with tears streaming down my cheeks.. to think of it, he is not worth of my tears.. so i hope this friendship we had is through.. i always treated him as a friend, someone who i could look up to. someone who actually cared bout me, who is always there for me when is needed.. ya, he is the one. as time passed, i became a nobody. i become no one.. my life is full of emptiness.. until another friend took me in to be his best friend.. i was so lucky and thankful to have him as my friend.. somebody who actually treated me as somebody.. and most importanty not invisible.. he cherished my friendship.. eventhough he doesnt show it, but i know that deep down in his heart he do.. he has tonnes of friends, he doesnt need me.. so stop living in the past maminix! stop thinking too much and get on with your own life.. he has his own life and i have mine.. so thats all.. this friendship between me and him better comes to an end before things get ugly.. oo i dun wan that to happen.. its ugly enough, so lets just set our priorities and get over with it..



ya.. i've been thinking of dropping class.. to think that chinese teacher actually trusted me and believed in me... if i just turn her down, she will be so dissapointed in me. i cant do that, eventhough i hate her.. God said: "love your enemies as how i have loved you" i dun really really hate her, its just that there are some certain times when she really knows how to drive a person crazy.. i am not so particular bout the teacher.. haiz, the teacher is bad enough, now with the subject? i cant cope with that.. not anymore..well, i used to but now i cant. i am doing this for the best of myself and i cant do this just for the sake of my friends.. ya i wont be with you, but we still could meet up during lunch.. rite? dont show me a long face, u should be happy for me.. ! ian.. save me a spot..

well, if this happens, there will be quite a lot of things that i will lose.. my best friends, well.. i cant do this for the sake of friends... friends come by.. they might not be by your side.. but they will always be at your heart! well, watever my decision is... i am going to reconsider it all right.. but.. once said there is no turning back..

nothing much to say..
so bored..
how la?