recent update of my life

what kind of world do we live in?

what ever happens to... we get to decide? we have a choice?

where is our authority as a student?

why are people threatening us to do things we don't want to do?

why?!

yeah.. you guessed it.. the one and only thing that i can never major in school is..

sports.

sports day is coming.. they are making me and the rest of the form 3's to join. If you ask me, i am not sporting material.. honestly. Well, if they actually picked me, sorry to tell them.. but they chose the wrong person. How stupid can these people be? geez.. it's not just getting chosen, but you are also forced to go. But.. i expected the teachers to know more than we do. WE do have PMR this year.. and yeah, it's either they don't have brains.. or gone bonkers.. they made us join.. come to think of it.. i am absolutely not going anywhere when i am threatened.. i will only go for it when i feel comfortable..* which i never will be * =] they can threatened me as they like.. i don't care.. i will always put my priority first to my studies.. and THAT.. won't change my mind..

H1N1 just attacked miri a few days ago.. all of us have to extra alert. Sanitizers are stocked up at home already.. haha.. just in case.. unfortunately for my brother.. one of the students in his school got infected as well. His school is going to be quarentined for about one week.. this is actually good news to him.. sleeping.. eating.. online all day? who don't want that? but still.. yeah.. the disease is spreading like wildfire.. so, if we're not careful.. we could be next.. who knows?

as the bible says, there would be 7 plagues before dooms day arrives.. i wonder which plague does H1N1 belongs to .. oh well.. recently, if you do read chinese newspaper.. there seems to be an outbreak of H3N8 in USA.. which i clearly didn't believe because it wasn't stated on the Borneo Post.. clearly, if it were real, Borneo Post would have mentioned it as well.. but unfortunately... it didn't. DOGS.. i love them.. it would be such a sad thing to see those cute little creatures get infected as well..

the year 2012.. science and maths would resume to it's old syllabus.. all in malay.. what is going to happen to english then? well, by that time.. i am already out of chung hua..to think i even consider of studying there for form 6.. no way am i ever doing that to face this.. trust me.. my malay isn't all that good.. it's bad enough that my malay isn't good.. what more to say everything in malay.. i also pity my younger siblings though.. they don't major in malay ... =(..

*thinks*

*could this be one of the plagues as well?*

CS members are currently in kuching *gasps* (that's where H1N1 is as well) .. having their state level competition.. to be honest, i really liked the script this year.. kinda nice.. all bout the fuzzy little animals.. awh =).. i wish i was with them.. the state level was a little TOO soon.. oh well, all the best to them.. i hope they could win and uphold miri's name to the national levels! you guyz ROCK! and i believe in strength and mind.. you guyz are the best.. ALWAYS...

memories..

bittersweet memories..

irreplacable..

rehearsels..

interschool..

practicing ..

stand carrying competition..

ordered 30 roti canai at jamilah.. *they did have a hard time preparing our meals =]*

performances..

comments..

on the bus..

paramount..

state..

champs..

the trophy with a price TAG! =.=..

on the way back..

no nationals..

sad..

but at least we still have each other =)

this is dedicated to a friend whom i shall never forget

to a dear friend and also friends whom i shall never forget..

i was there when you need me..

i was there by your side..

being a friend to you..

loyal, trustworthy friend..

but were you there when i needed you?

i always knew what you're thinking..

it isn't hard to guess..

all those complications buzzing in your mind..

we worked it out..

but were you there when i'm toubled?

as time passes,

the you i remembered slowly faded from my sight.

i can no longer see the "you" i remembered a year ago..

you slowly faded from my mind..

and at the same time,

wishing you to be back again..

why did things change?

i love it the way it is..

i just don't understand sometimes..

maybe we are actually different from what we think..

i was showered with gifts from you..

i was showered with cards from you...

i appreciated it..

but you can never grant me one simple thing..

where was your friendship?

friends,

they may come and go..

but just remember..

though you can't see them all the time,

but you'll always remember them in your heart..

the words just fell out of you..

it stabbed my heart real hard..

i had to be strong..

to face what's going on..

gathered all the shattered pieces of myself..

aided my bleeding heart..

pulled myself back together..

to be a better person..

i moved forward..

ignoring the past..

it's like as if nothing has ever happened

why did you change?

why? i don't understand!

if only things were cool and laid back..

this won't even happen

i missed the good times..

when we're all together..

until..

things turned ugly..

we weren't the same again..

sometimes i wonder..

does the meaning of "frienship forever" still exist?

the line is visible..

it's drawn between us..

i can't possibly cross that line ever again..

not anymore..

not after all we had been through..

please..

not anymore..

how i wish to get rid of that line..

how i wish for everything to be the same again!

that boundary between us..

i missed you my friend..

but we should stay where we are..

it's what's best for us..

i don't want any more arguements!

i don't want any more tears..

i just want peace..

peace to the inner core of my life..

the rainbow shone brightly in the sky..

how beautiful and magestic it looked with it's colourful colours..

each colour symbolizes the beauty of the rainbow..

together they stand..

they could be the most beautiful thing in the world mankind has ever seen..

imagine..

what would it be like if any of the colours are gone?

will it ever be the same again?

my friend..

we're the rainbow..

each of us have our own good and bad points..

each of us are different..

that's what make us special..

our specialty created that rainbow..

the rainbow of a beautiful and a long lasting frienship..

as the rainbow shoned brightly in the sky..

dark clouds came in a swift..

followed by thunders and lightnings..

with the heavy downpour..

it has been dark for ages..

until one day when the rainbow decided to shine again..

it was different..

it was totally disfigured..

it wasn't the same old rainbow i remembered..

the colours were faded..

some of the colours were gone..

why?

why is this happening?!

my dear friend..

though i know you have been not yourself lately these few days..

but remember this..

whatever happens..

i will still be there to support you and help you ..

things that happened in the past were gone and are never coming back..

and i forgive you for what you did..

eventhough it's hard to..

forgive and forget ..

move on..

my dear friend,

we have our differences..

and i'm sure you know that as well..

but sometimes..

it's still best for us to draw a line..

if we're too over..

things may turn even uglier..

and i don't want that to happen..

and i am sure you don't want to..

it's what's best for each of us..

it's better to cherish your friend every now and then..

before it's too late..

my friend..

you changed a lot ..

you changed from the silly looking person to a person i don't know anymore..

i don't understand you anymore..

it's as if our line just cut off..

we're not connected ..

but one thing is for sure..

you will still be the same to me ..

in my heart..

my friend..

wherever you are..

i hope that when you get this message

i hope and pray that you will change yourself for the better..

last but not least..

before i depart from the side of your line..

let me ask you a simple question...

: where were you when you're gone?

to my blog readers..

if you have a friend out there..

whoever they may be..

cherish them with all you could..

cherish them with all you have..

don't wait till when they're gone..

then to cherish them..

true friends don't grow on trees..

and it's difficult to find one who you truly trust and believe..

bad friends are like leaves..

scattered on the ground..

it means nothing..

but just a pile of CRAP/TRASH

good friends..

they are like diamonds..

except that they are more valuable than diamonds..

nothing can be compared to that..

not even it's value..

now.. lets take a moment to cherish our friends.. walk up to them and say:" you're my best friend!" or even give them a call.. talk to them just to let them know that they're someone special to you in life..

life can be meaningless.. i agree with that term..

but one things for sure.

don't forget to live life to the fullest..

mallo's

i love you people!

you're the rainbow of my life..

the sun that warms my heart..

the loyal companion ...

the umbrella that protects me from the "rain"..

the shelter that keeps me safe..

the knight that defends me..

the aider to a bleeding heart..

the one that keeps me laughing all the time...

i love you guys!

no one in a million years can ever replace you..

you can be found only once in a lifetime!

i would be nothing without you!

and thus.. i would like to take the oppourtunity to cherish my own friends as well

calvin aka mallo

you can be a serious pain in the neck..

but honestly..

you're just there watching out for us..

you're always there to help..

i am lucky to have you as a friend..

stephen aka.. snow white?

well, you don't think before you act..

but deep down inside of you..

you're a nice guy..

you are always there when people need you..

i am lucky to have you as a friend

sylv aka the Sun Godess ( haha.. to me la)

you're there when i needed you..

you pulled my socks up again when i'm troubled...

you aided my bleeding heart with your kindness and care..

you're the sun of my heart..

who warms me up when i'm blue..

you're the music that keeps me going..

your never ending of caring and kindness..

it's what made you special..

and i am glad that God made you..

to be my best, trustworthy and a reliable friend..

i'm lucky to have you as a friend..

josh aka the knight (also from what i think)

you're there when i need you..

you fight for the things you wanted..

all for justice..

you want what's right..

you don't want to be blamed for nothing you commited

you're the brave knight..

who fought the endless battle..

to defend our friendship..

i am lucky to have you as a friend..

to the rest of my friends..

i just lost my words of cherishing ..

but deep down still..

i will cherish you always..

cheers!

live life to the fullest..

Updated.. for now..

phew.. after so many weeks and days not blogging, just felt weird.. it's not like me to stop doing something i usually do.

So, summarizing for what i did for the past few weeks..

Let's see, yeah test was over.. but the outcome isn't going to look pretty in my report card. Well, thank heavens this is just some stupid ol' exam.. it's not PMR.. haha..Stupid exam.. well, come to think of it, there is only a few months left.. Time passes by fast huh? i was just thinking about the same thing.

Uh - Huh..

A few days ago, Sylv, me, Calbin, Steve, Josh, Y2k, KY.. Jus.. went to fun fair.. yeah, it was fun. The most exciting ride was that spinning thing that goes round and round and a random guy shuffles in the middle. It was so good that i had to ride it twice.. haha! but it was costly though. 1 token costs RM2. Wow.. haha.. but still i did have a great time. The Ghost House was a complete Rip OFF! it's only 1 round..and it's lame.. yeah i know i screamed.. haha! before we went in to the ghost house, we were holding hands together.. so scared.. haiz.. Justine didn't want to go though, knowing her scared of ghosts.. first we entered, it was completely dark. Then all i heard was random people screaming.. and flashing lights go on and off.. but the most scariest part was the some sort of mummy from the dead.. wrapped up in some random bandages i guess.. hooked there.. yeah, i think that was the most scariest one.. to me.. honestly, i don't go into the ghost house because i wanted to.. it's cause i don't want to miss out the fun.

Then, to the Octopus!

I really enjoyed that ride! haha! when you're riding, you can feel yourself being thrown around.. that's the best part of it, and also the scariest part.. Practically throughout the ride, Sylv and I.. our mouths were open.. haha.. after we got down from the ride.. we instantly lost our voice.. The guys then insisted that we ride on the Apollo.. some sort of random rocket thingy.. looks fun, but i dare not ride on it. The last time i rode on that thing, i was rushing to the toilet puking, honestly. After riding it, Josh's face turned totally pale, like he was about to faint or something. ( I warned you, didn't i?) Soo.. he had a hard time pulling himself back together.. hmm.. yeah..

Just went and watched Night at the museum 2 last night, no offence but honestly i find it kind of lame, i mean the ending was so predictable. Won't it be more interesting if the brother of the mean egyptian king came and fought him himself? Gosh.. good movies are really hard to find these days.. Well, everyone's a critic. But, this movie was definetly better than Alien VS Monsters. The time when i went to watch, sound system went haywire, and the monsters doesn't look really hilarious like the one's in the trailer..

i bought Sims 2 games recently, and i am having a hard time finding a solution to play the game. If only i was a computer geek, i would have been playing it by now. All these, copying, pasting.. .. and the crack files. Gosh, i am so not good at this. Well, I gave up that for now. haha..

My dad recently bought psp's for my younger siblings. Lucky them. haha. I love the graphics, and the sound system, and i can't believe that i can go online with it. I could go to facebook, my blog.. but i can't chat or play any games on facebook. But i still could do all the random stuff like taking quizzes, adding friends..

SO... i changed my blog layout.. what do you think? any comments or feedbacks.. please let me know.. i need a change for my blog anyway.. haha..

Haiz..

Holidays are coming to an end!! NO! well, nothing lasts forever.. does it? if only it does..

oh yeah, i am currently still recovering from my nausea... that's not my worst.. the worst? don't even ask that question, you'll end up seeing me throwing up at you.

So.. yeah.. that's practically everything about it.. lazy to blog ler.. haha..

summarized yesterday

Going to be a hermit.. Test! dang.. 

today was like the most xiens days i ever had.. especially during history. Just by hearing her shrilling, loud and annoying voice.. it's torture.. agonizing! she stabbed my soul with her voice.. striked right into the heart.. oh wow... closing my ears.. i am not going to hear anymore of her damn voice. If being rude to a teacher isn't against the school rules, you will be seeing my shoes in her mouth.. stuffing them down in her throat.. 

nah, i just felt like i had the urge to do soo.. but still, i don't hold grudges against her.. she can be pretty annoying sometimes, telling us to just drop history when you don't feel like studying.. is this teacher daf? or just being another patrick star acting like a complete dumbo? if i could drop history, i would already drop for a long long time ago... for the fact, i love history, it's the teacher i dislike.. soo annoying and slow in teaching.. 

felt kinda lonely, isolated from the crowd.. well, i have to get use to that sooner or later.. really.. i am not going to say out my reason why.. but if you observe the situation, the answer w0uld just pop out in your head. Trust me, it isn't hard to guess when it comes to my kind of situation. 

Being a hermit.. Studying.. Going nuts.. trying to be more optimistic when it comes to stress. Well, like they say.. you need to express your feelings. So, please spare me a moment to express my feelings... * clears throat*  ARGH! *runs in circles*..*rolls on the floor* * smashing everything* ok, i'm cool now.. 

Don't know where i am heading to this holiday, i planned not to go anywhere.. but that means i will be at home.. ALL ALONE! no way! i don't want to be the one that misses out all the fun.. despite whatever the consequences may be.. bring it on, show me what you've got.. 

been doing all these crazy quizzes in facebook, and somehow the stupid facebook just won't let me login.. hmm.. well, i can be tricky at certain times.. hey, that's my specialty. You don't come across people who are this tricky once in your lifetime.. ain't i special? awh.. ok, enough with the sick joke.. To you people out there, if you wan't to take this quiz please visit my facebook.. 

the quiz.. 

or for the latest one, which i recommand you to not take it, please visit here

XD, been crazy about mango's these few days.. starting from mango ice cream, milkshake.. pie? *there is such thing you know..* yoghurt, fizzy drinks.. well, mango's galore.. cheers to mango.. 

there was a total black out throughout pujut5-7 and lutong, some people just got lucky that they didn't experience it, though to be honest.. i kind of like it.. the darkness surrounding me.. the little candle that burns brightly.. and the shadows.. and lil' kids screaming.. O_O...*that was my bro* .. yeah, had a freakishly good and itchy time.. *mosquitoe attack! *

Alas, my dear friends.. now we must be apart.. going our seperate ways.. till it comes to an end.. than our faces shall meet.. goodbye bloggie! XD.. T_T

Church Activity

Patrick's biggest ambition in life can be summed up in 4 words..

"uh.. i.. uh.. forgot"

aint that sweet? if life is that easy being a retard.. i rather be one.. seriously... just play stupid

well, nothing is easy in life is there? we all have our duties in life. So, there is no way we can escape from life..

Went to church activities today, forgotten to bring my card~>.<>

For starters, we had a talk on Heaven, Hell and Purgurtory.. i know out there are some protestants who don't believe in Purgurtory, but i will still likely wan't to share it.. 

Heaven, our eternal home.. spaceless, timeless.. The only way to get there is to obey the commandments and remain chastity and faithful to God.. 

Hell, the home of eternal suffering.. For your information, God never ever did send us to hell, it's based on our doings on Earth.. So, basically if one goes to hell, it's based on his/her choice.. 

Purgurtory.. neither heaven or hell.. souls which are trapped in Purgurtory are helpless. They need our prayers to free them from Purgurtory to lead them to Heaven.. 

The most interesting part of this talk is based on St. Lucifer.. he was onced the most beautiful arch angel in heaven. He used to lead the choir in heavens, so basically he is a really handful when it comes to music.. The name Lucy which means-shinning..so together Lucifer means -Shinning Brightly.. However, he abused his powers and eventually was kicked out of heaven.. 

Now, he ended up as king of hell.. sighs.

The next talk was based on Rock Music ...

Remember the part i said that Lucifer was a handful when it comes to music.. so, beware.. Rock music is practically part of how Satan communicates with us.. Believe it or not, if you still have those old cassette tapes.. *rock music* and based on scientific researches, if played backwards slowly, you could actually hear Satan's voice/message.. creepy huh? So, to all Rock Fans.. please choose your Rock Music carefully, because it could really influence one's mind.. 

Then, they also showed us some Satanic signs.. it's good to know, so that we won't draw, use .. act the sign out.. 

Lunch Break!

Mum packed me donuts from Big Apple... Awh.. the icing melted.. oh well, there's nothing i can do can i? haha.. 

Continuing.. 

hmm, let's see.. We learned also about other churches teaching, which i think it was really .. really different from ours.. Well, we learned about the Islamic teachings, Hinduism.. Taoism.. Buddhistsm..(did i spell it right lols?) .. and other Protestant churches eg: New age.. Ok, let the questions pour in.. you might be wondering why are we learning all this eh? Well, it's just to let us know about other religion's teaching. Don't get confused ya? the only reason we learn it, is to ensure that we know what their teachings are, and not confused up.. Amazingly, it was fun learning what other religion's teachings are.. 

Today's talk was definetly interesting, it's just really sad that next week's talk will be the last for confirmation.. There are often times that i complained saying that this talk is going to affect me, and it's just a burden. But, as time goes.. things changed too.. sometimes, i really wish events like this will never come to an end. Well, nothing lasts forever eh? hmm..

Right, today is Jasper aka Calvin's birthday.. well, made Jasper a gift, hope he likes it.. It's not how big the gift is, it's the thought that counts.. the thought that comes deep down from your heart.. i hope he likes it though.. seriously..

Mallory's fun life can be summed up in 5 words..

Julian says:" Ha...Ha.. Ha.." 

don't get it? people who go to Madam Chua tuition would know what it meant..

So.. practically Mallory's life can be officially summed up in ..er.. let's say in a few words..

Fun + Books + Church activities + Studies + YCS meetings= mallory's form 3 life

What's going to happen to us after confirmation then?

-well, we are definetly going to be soldiers of christ of course..

-as Dominic says:" we shall go our seperate ways." O_O? 

haha, Dominic's dad looked a little upset when we tapped his car window when Dominic's in it.. sowee! had a fun day..^^

bought some treats.. hahha.. SSShhh..

 

went for church activity today.. and they played this sad video.. which i find it really meaningful.. jennifer and i were crying after watching it.. the video below is something like it.. but i will try to find the actual one.. 

enjoy~

chemical reaction..

what happens when you mix vanilla milkshake and H2O together? 

well, as a matter of fact.. you will get none other then ..

word equation:

vanilla milkshake+ oxygen + water = vanilla hydroxide../ water got polluted and you can't drink it anymore...

ZZZZzzzzz...

such a total waste of good water huh? but in fact.. it's also a total waste of vanilla milkshake too.. cause i can't drink it.. continue to read below...

somehow.. the vanilla milkshake happens to react with water.. it turns cloudy and murky.. and also a little dark? O_0?! ohkay? maybe a little too much reaction.. 

well, to be honest, it wasn't me who did it, so keep your suspiciousness of me.. i mean it .. literally.. you'd better count your blessings, otherwise i would have poured it all over you.. don't think i never done that to anyone before.. so watch out..

but..

what happened if i did poured on him?

word equation:

vanilla milkshake+ gravity+human= a human cursing and screaming ..

well, that's all you gotta know..  

so.. you owe me RM 5.. 

ps: i didn't drink it after you took a sip of my straw.. so it's a complete waste.. thanks to you.. this isn't the first time! 

so to all my blog readers, if anyone grabbed you and took a sip of your drink without asking you, especially on a hot day..  you just march up to that idiot and pour the drink  all over him.. or not to make a scene.. just pour it in his water bottle.. =D

cheers to science~