" Do you believe in Jesus Christ?"

"Yes, of course I do "

" Then don't judge"

"....."

Life. Recently. Is Neutral. I won't say that it's horrible or to be insanely awesome, but just neutral

What does it take to forget someone you care about? It's not that easy for me to fathom out.

I care for people. When I do care for someone, I care for them all out. I always think what's best for them, not for myself. My momma said that it's good to be like that, but sometimes I'm being too selfish to myself. Mother knows best :) And the things I get in return from you? Your hateful remarks.

As history repeats itself.

You won't cherish a friendship, until you realize it's over.

I thought what we had was really something,

but it turned out that all the glitters are not gold.

I felt this deep connection within us.

But somehow somewhat.

You unplugged it.

A woman is like a rose,

If you treat her right,

She will bloom.

If you don't,

she will wilt.

My mind has been playing tricks on me. Mind games to be precise. Somehow I think there's another part of me dominating over my mind. I just want to get things right. No matter how I try to fix things, it just seems that I'm making more damage than amends. It's hard. To forget about someone you care of. Not especially when that someone is your best friend. Having such fond memories together. Sometimes I hate myself for feeling this way. I'd do anything to be my ownself and feel normal. Those 5 good years were something. We were like little school kids who once learned their ABC's together to grown teens.

My one regret. Was to overlook what I had before and only started to cultivate everything I have now. We all know that one day high school will be over with. Then we all have to start our lives anew once again. Fate is like gravity. You may FEEL like jumping up and down till your hearts content, but the earth still falls into the sun, and the sun still courses through the galaxy, both indifferent and short lived and insignificant defiance.

The best way to find your perfect match, is to meet love half way.

I forgotten what its like to feel that way. All the tingly sensation in your guts and having to feel the way that gravity seemed to be miscomprehended and levitates you off the ground. I sworn that I will not feel that way ever again until the time is right. My momma and daddy always taught me to never love another until the time comes. Well, its easier when your mouth is doing all the talking but I'm doing all the feeling. I'm trying my best to not plunge into the sea of regrets. Like a friend once told me,

relationships are like chewing gums. It taste really SWEET in the beginning, and after awhile, it gets TASTELESS, and you spit it out.

Basically, that's true. :)

I have a stubborn head. And my paranoid meter is off the charts xD Love doesnt happen to me always. I'm not that kind of girl who gets favoured by most boys. But that's okay with me. I tend to live with that :) Well dear girls, please stop complaining on how your boyfriends are NOT spending time with you. It wont KILL YOU to hold a worm, or even get yourself sweaty! Because we girls here are what your boyfriends truly deserve.

I.LOVE.MY.FAMILY.AND.FRIENDS. :)

Sometimes, you just have to follow your heart. :) Listen to it, because it's trying to tell you something :)

Typically. There are THREE types of girls.

1st. The naive + goody two shoes.

2nd. The totally ABNORMAL ones AKA crazy

3rd. Bitches

Nope. I'm serious alright.

So you think you're all that pretty aye? And the other girls around you, you think they're nothing but ugly old fags? Think again Missy, because the world has many other prettier girls than YOU.

It doesn't matter how you judge people, but for all I know, beauty is always skin deep. And that's something you'll never EVER understand.

So what? You may think that everyone else is ugly, but open your EYES girl ( that is if you have any ) God made us beautiful, and he never makes mistakes, because we are all beautiful in our own way.

Beauty is not by the looks. It's from the heart.

Believe, the impossible. Because someday, you'll get there :]

I've been doing a LOT a lot of thinking lately.

Once I vowed to myself to never love somebody ever again. Because loving that person wont give you the results they promised to be. Lately, this group of Curtin people came to our school to gave us some motivational talk, which I find it surprisingly .. motivating, considering the fact that I don't always listen to these talks, they'll end up boring you to death.

Surprisingly. To succeed in doing something, especially that something which is REAL REAL important to us, we need LOVE. What's the point if you're doing it all with hard work and determination when there's no one there to support you? The truth spoken out aloud, the inner truth is all I need to hear :) I have never felt soo good after hearing that.

Was in such relief after teachers have come to an agreement to use the script this year :) It's pretty stressful to do a lot of things one go considering that I have SPM this year == Darnit.

Pretty much a lot of things to catch up on.

This is Taylor. The person who saved me from getting tangled up in inexpressible emotions.

She has made all the inexpressible.. expressible.

And I'm forever grateful for it :)

Wished I've known her sooner. Because that would have saved me from a lot of awkward moments.

To all the little hearts that I once broke because of my abrupt sharp comments, I'm sorry.

To that someone special, please be there for me?

Because I was Enchanted to meet you :)

The lingering question kept me up

2am, who do you love?

I wonder till I'm wide awake

Now I'm pacing back and forth, wishing you were at my door

I'd open up and you would say,

It was enchanting to meet you

All I know is I was enchanted to meet you

This night is sparkling, don't you let it go

I'm wonderstruck, blushing all the way home

I'll spend forever wondering if you knew

This night is flawless, don't you let it go

I'm wonderstruck, dancing around all alone

I'll spend forever wondering if you knew

I was enchanted to meet you

To my beloved CS babes, don't break my heart? And don't give me endless sleepless nights?

Train to be the best! Because you are the best!

To my besties, I've missed you. Every single one of you.

I.LOVE.YOU.ALL.VERY.MUCH.

Please don't be in love with someone else

Please don't have somebody waiting on you

BLAH

Another year. Another hectic life. Another new year's resolution. And another to fight for.

Yep. It's the start of the new year. Pretty boring I'd have to say when all the ones you love most are transferred to another class. Teacher's are mean, homework pilling up, yea, nothing surprising. Just a new way the teachers have in mind for torturing us. :( Teachers are all so demanding, not to mention really pathetic ( well yea SOME ).. lack of sleep. Well yea, that's pretty much about what's going on and what is happening around me. ==

Well, yea, cheers to 2011. Hope this time, I'd survive the final battle :P

My new years resolution : SPM straight A's :)