life is truly bittersweet..

haiz.. cousins came down from kuching and are now going back today.. sad.. wish i could stay with them.. life truly is bittersweet..

lol.. went to ng sian hup and saw aron... aka calvin.. haiz.. see me liao no say hi d wor.. rude hor?? haiz.. i want to go and greet him.. paiseh lar.. in front of his parents mer? no way.. hehe.. sneak up on him.. awh.. his younger brother is soooo cute! so chubby looking.. and still.. he doesnt know that i am there..hmm.. maybe i could be a spy some day...

haiz.. the end of the year is approaching soon.. a year is again.. over..haiz.. next year also got PMR.. nooo.... whats worst is that the first day of PMR is my birthday.. nevermind... just have to celebrate earlier..

hehe.. went roller blading too.. a rookie like me who doesnt know how to roller blade.. after several attempts.. yippee!! i can rollerblade.. ky arr.. dont look down on me lar.. i know how to rollerblade d.. hehe .. juz jk.

haiz.. still feel sad that my cousins are leaving today.. i so wish i could stay with them...i hope i can still see them again next year..once they left.. boredom rushed towards me.. bored..T.T haiz.. i wish next year isnt that demon is our teacher...(aka.. teacher liew ai ing) omg.. she is so damn strict! i really hate her.. no offence lar.. not taking chinese for my PMR...whether she like it or not.. she cant force me if i dont want to.. its a free country right? so? i have my authorities to not take chinese for PMR.. well sometimes she can really convince u to take chinese.. with my lousy results? i dont think so..

i havent even started with my school preperations yet.. its seemed so fast that how time flies.. i can still remember the last day of school.. getting report card.. anxious to know which class your in next year.. trying to keep in touch with friends.. hanging out.. i feel like i have done nothing this year.. except goofing off.. ya.. i can be a little nuts sometimes.. thats just me..

ever since calvin (aka aron) introduced me to this campus package.. its like a sort of XPAX package but its more for students and more appropriate for us.. make sure you are below 25.. lol..i have been sms-ing a lot especially with calvin and ky.. they also used the same package which make it soooo much cheaper to sms each other.. can u believe it? sms using the campus package with another friend who uses campus package only costs half sen! believe it or not.. i am not lying! its true.. serious.. and wats even better is that ur credit will never expire..

went to starbucks.. yuck! i hate cold coffee.. they just make me sick on the inside.. makes me want to vomit.. no offence to coffee lovers.. i love coffee... but hot ones.. haiz.. i got a pair of ear rings from my cousins this christmas.. and what am i gonna do with it? i dont pierce my ears.. its like soo.. not right for me.. watever...

oh ya.. i just remembered.. to all RC's.. age 15 and above next year.. are to attend a confirmation course next year..that is if u want lar.. at ST.Joseph's Cathedral.. 4th January.. 1pm-230pm.. that means u too ian gan.. better be quick with ur comunnion... better not be left behind..

merry xmas and a happy new year!!

MERRY CHRISTMAS AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR>.<

first things first.. please dun use annoymous names on my cbox..so hard to tell who is who.. thanks..

ya. i noe..i should have posted this yesterday.. lol.. sorry for not posting for a long long time! so ya.. its xmas..have loads of fun.. cousins came down from kuching to miri.. went to midnight mass.. opened presents!! and bbq.. then dinner..

it was so unexpected.. i went to dinner and i saw that chicken guy.. (to those who know what i meant) .. how unlucky.. but hey... its christmas! everyone should be celebrating! forget bout everything.. and i saw freda.. yar.. time flew so fast...

ok..maybe some people dunno but i dun mean to brag.. i just dun wan people to get shocked when they see me.. so ya like i cut my hair short.. u noe that bob thing that is short at the back and long in the front..i cut that hairstyle a month ago.. kinda like it.. but its really hard to maintain! lol!! just telling so that when u guyz see me dont get shocked.. lol! haix..

so.. at christmas dinner.. some people are just so fortunate having their birthday on christmas.. but .. u oso rugi lar.. normally u receive presents on ur birthday and christmas.. but if its both on the same day .. only receive once lor...( sorry.. i dun mean to sound like a child.. hehe)

i just cant wait to go to school.. say only lar.. but when school really starts.. i will start to miss holidays..hahax.. haiz.. i pray to God that next year isnt that demon.. (aka chinese teacher) who is our form teacher.. and chinese teacher.. its bad enough that u have to see her in her lesson... and now u have to see her everyday.. haix.. well.. lets hope not.. i hope she wont be sooo.. like pressuring me and justine.. coz we are not taking chinese during PMR>.<.. tak boleh tahan lar.. xiens.. just learn lor..

want to drop ... but parents say best dun lar.. take advantage of the good teachers in B class.. ok lo.. sui bian.. decision made.. i really am gonna miss jacq and nic.. love ya.. hope u guyz can do better and come back up to B class.. i will be waiting for you!!

nothing much to blog about.. thats practically just everything..

GOODBYE 2008!! HELLO 2009!!! lalalala

a perfect ending and a wonderful beginning!

tagged..this is a different one..

sorry sylvia.. i noe this is kinda late replying the tagg thingy.. hope u dont mind...>.<

RULES:- Pick your birth month.- Italicise those that do not apply to u- Bold those that best apply to you.- For those that you are unsure about, make the font smaller.- Copy to your own blog, with all twelve months.
- Tag 5 people------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

JANUARY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very stubborn and money cautious.

FEBRUARY: Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizes dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

MARCH: Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves travelling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.

APRIL: Active and dynamic. Decisive and hasty but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving. Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their lover can see.

MAY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled.Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance.Understanding.Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves travelling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited.Spendthrift.

JUNE: Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills.Talk active. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.

JULY: Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

AUGUST: Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride in oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends.

SEPTEMBER: Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people's mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.

OCTOBER: Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to take things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer.Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. (i think everyone is)Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced.Easily loses confidence. Loves children.(ask me this later..)

NOVEMBER: Has a lot of ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinks forward.Unique and brilliant. Extraordinary ideas. Sharp thinking. Fine and strong clairvoyance. Can become good doctors. Dynamic in personality. Secretive.Inquisitive. Knows how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative but amiable.Brave and generous. Patient. Stubborn and hard-hearted. If there is a will, there is a way. Determined. Never give up. Hardly becomes angry unless provoked. Loves to be alone. Thinks differently from others. Sharp-minded.Motivates oneself. Does not appreciate praises. High-spirited. Well-built and tough. Deep love and emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships.Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest and keeps secrets. Not able to control emotions. Unpredictable.

DECEMBER: Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egotistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor.

ok.. so now me wan tagg..
1. eric
2.ky!
3.nic
4.aron
5.steve..

Borneo Tropical Rainforest Resort.. my experience..

during saturday and sunday.. when to Borneo Tropical Rainforest Resort.. ah.. yes that resort is in a rainforest.. that place is located not far from miri.. its more like the outskirts of miri.. on the way to Bintulu..

ok.. 1st of all.. my very very 1st impression was this place is like a whole new enviroment to me.. i had never been into a rainforest.. as in into it.. normally for rainforest.. i would just stand by the road side and say:" hey look! its the rainforest..." ya, that was before.. so this would be a whole new experience to me.. i really enjoyed it..it was quite fun and rather tiring..

1st day.. ah.. the rainforest.. we reached there around 1 pm..went to the reception desk to check in.. the service there was good at first.. i really love the enviroment there.. it was so cooling.. and ya.. there were heaps of mosquitoes there.. that i really hate.. its bad enough that my house have tonnes of mosquitoes.. now more.. hate it.. well, that time our room wasnt ready yet.. so we went into our temporary room which is called "engkabang" ..well.. gee.. that room was small.. but luckily it was only temporary..

2pm, went on the tour around the rainforest.. met some friends on the tour bus.. such a coincidence... i saw many plants.. and some plants are like evil.. one touch of it and u get rashes all over.. its not just the plants.. the fruits as well.. wild fruits.. ps.. i never knew fruits are wild.. all i noe that is i thought only animals are wild.. oh well.. then there is the mini zoo.. i was like shocked.. :" u have a zoo in the rainforest?? wow.. impressive!" saw the usual animals.. monkeys.. chickens.. sheeps.. goats.. too many..

i really hate this part of the tour.. NATURE WALK.. no offence to mother nature.. but there are just loads of bugs.. and mosquitoes.. and falling branches.. snake bites.. sometimes.. mother nature can be really merciless..we walked for like 30 minutes.. ok, i noe wat ur thinking.. so ya.. its only 30 minutes? that tiring?? oh ok.. for your information.. we are walking up the hill.. that is really tiring.. u can feel ur legs heavy and its like as if u can tumble down any minute.. my sis..oh ya.. i forgoten to mention that we sprayed our legs and arms with mosquitoe repellent.. my sis somehow was allergic to it and her leg was all swollen.. so i think to her this was a really bad experience to her..

after a long journey.. then we continue onwards with the tour.. its amazing when you are at the top of the mountain.. u can see batu niah straight ahead.. so near yet so far.. T.T then.. aha.. i love this part.. there was one of the places called the "sarawak pavilion" its more like a mini park.. and there u can see like a mini waterfall.. i heard wat my parents say its just rainwater.. but.. some of them said it was natural mineral water.. not sure.. but believe it or not.. to me i think its more like natural mineral water.. some people actually drank it.. and some people almost bath in it.. there are like also little fishy in the waterfall..and prawns too.. there were ants there all right.. but this one is so huge..!! u noe the normal ants u see at home? this one is 20 times bigger its size.. i was actually like washing my hand than this ant came crawling up my hand.. i was so freaked out that i cant scream.. i was so scared that it might bit me.. who noes?? this ant is friendly.. according to the guider.. this ant is harmless.. *phew*

ah yes.. then there is the natural water fall...i thought of jump in and swim .. but u noe how deep it is?? its like 20 feet! normal swimming pools are like less than 10 feet.. but i think this is kinda too much.. and again there is nature walk.. gah.. 900m walk from the rainforest to the resort.. wat a relief.. the tour is like finally over..

one more thing.. there is a cafe there.. and its situated at the mountain.. its like just a few metres away from our room.. and its like u have to climb up the mountain to eat.. oh.. i really hated that.. its made me feel like another tour.. everyone was panting when they reached the cafe.. the food is so damn delicious.. to me i think climbing the mountain was really worth it! they have mash potatoes.. bbq.. all kinds of food..

our room.. its so nice.. and ya its kinda squeazzy for 5 humans.. its like a big room.. made of wood.. and its like near the lake .. its so beautiful and i just dunno how to describe it.. oh ya.. from engkabang we moved to merbau.. next morning i was freezing.. i noticed i didnt had my blanket on when i slept and my sis who is sleeping next to me took it all.. so apparently i had a really bad cold that morning.. and when i get cold.. things get ugly.. so we went to eat again.. oh ya.. another mountain climbing.. and then we went fishing.. caught loads of fish then we threw it back into the pond again.. then we went back home.. whee.. wat a relief.. then home sweet home..

there are just too many things going on there.. if u are on of those types who cant stand bugs or not that kind of 'fit people" note to self.. not advisable to go there.. ^^

hols..

its been like 3 weeks since i last blogged.. and u guyz thought that i disappeard.. hmm.. not really, i am still here and still alive.. so.. practically my computer was down..*again* and u noe the rest..

feel really sick during the holidays.. nothing much going on.. the 1st week was like waking up late.. then too tired then fall back asleep.. then wake up, breakfast.. staring at the dead pc.. then ps2, then tv.. practically thats how my life is so far..still have to practice piano.. xiens ar.. teacher also asking me want to have exam next year or not.. dunno la.. too many things to think already..

dunno how to approach Robinette say i want to drop chinese.. have to write letter.. dunno how to write.. gah! stella left miri already..all of a sudden... she didnt even say goodbye to me.. T.Tnvm.. all the best from us to her in kelantan.. must always jy oh.. hope to see each other again in the future.. i will always cherish the frienship we always had together..

too bored.. bought form 3 books to do.. started with maths and science.. maths was ok.. but some are just brain-teasing.. well, the 1st chapter was ok.. for science.. it was ok as well.. still forcing myself to read malay novels which i really need a notepad and a electronic dictionary by my side.. its like read.. read.. read.. then look at the dictionary.. then write at the notepad.. then read..read.. read.. gah! so xiens...hope this will pay off some day.. this is really agonizing! i use to be very good at malay at primary school and i score good marks as well.. what have become of me for the past few years.. have to find that myself again to get good marks in malay.. must have confidence and never panic..**ps: i always panic when it comes to subjects which i am not good at.**when i am panic.. things will turn out bad..

since when has hols become study month.. haiz.. forcing myself to read malay novels.. which i really really dont like.. its like eating bitter medicine.. well.. after viewing my blog it made me felt much better..got bored this morning.. took my camera out and take many lame pics.. the sky.. the floor.. haiz.. bad at photographing.. life is bored.. isnt it?

UNO!! and last day of school

there were 8 people..


16 hands..


80 fingers..


combined together..


we make UNO..



ok.. i noe i should have posted this like a week ago but my computer was down so.. not been blogging for quite a while.. so i am like gonna summerize everything..





today as usual, the prefects are scuttling around our block again. and this time.. we were caught! thanks to Aaron, some of the survivals arent dead yet.. maybe there is still hope.. so.. we gather the "dead bodies" and seperate them to there own respective colours.. ah.. this is wat really happens...


the block has been hijacked by prefects..as usual la.. nothing new~ then some of us were playing UNO.. then one of the prefects manage to barge in to our class.. instead of hiding them.. many of the players surrounded the table and tried to protect the UNO's.. however.. mission failed.. prefects asked us to tear the UNO's into bits..**bear in mind.. these UNO's are homemade and no money needed .. if buy d i cry liao lor..** lucky for us.. Aaron put some UNO's into the drawers and the prefects didnt notice it.. so, that means that we werent that doomed after all, at least we still have some survivors right?





then, Aaron folded paper bags and placed the "dead bodies" in it with their own respective colours of course.. and we are going to bury it.. sort of..**thats wat nic said** or maybe they are gonna celotape it back.. i dunno.. ah.. but its not the end yet! steve made new cards.. in fact this time, the cards are even better, and user friendly..**thats cause UNO gave me a papercut!T.T** ** no offence.. but steve's drawing on the cards are really nice!** well, here lies UNO.. time of death: 10AM... anyway.. there are still new cards, so.. just be happy!





lols! today the competition for the traditional dance thingy was so damn lame.. and to me its more like a room of torture! well, i wasnt in it cause i was asked to attend some sort of interview.. well, the people there are quite friendly definetly.. u have to show ur very best 1st impression on the students right? and what i really dont like about is that they are going through the paper with us.. and its like as if i cant read chinese? hello? felt so hopeless that time.. well, there is nothing i could do.. some questions are like questions i am facing.. well, who cares? its like they are asking u whether u need want to go for chinese during PMR and SPM.. and of course i say no la.. and i need to answer one thing.. its like asking u the difficulties you are facing in chinese.. besides the one mentioned.. i felt like saying: not interested in chinese and makes me sleep in class...T.Tand oh ya.. this is like the best chance to say something bout the teachers.. like they teach too fast.. talk too much! hehehe.. revenge is sweet sometimes...





oh ya.. to all fellow 2B students.. if you think you are able to make it to 3B next year, please take note.. the evil demon, **chinese teacher** 80% might be our form teacher next year.. haha.. not going to face her anyway.. wat if she is? haiz.. u can never be sure of anything.. ok.. enough talking bout her.. haiz.. anyway.. today was quite lol .. especially during sivics period..they were like choosing who is gonna perform and who is going to hold up any posts.. and eric was like shouting my name at teacher asking me to become a secretary.. well, i think this isnt so bad for as long there is no old hag bossing me around..



ah.. last day of school... i wish this day never comes.. ky brought along his camera and take pics of almost every corner of the school.. oh ya.. there was a dead bird by the stairs.. and ants were crawling all over it.. **grossed out** ..i cherished every moment i had in 2B.. all the students that i hang out with.. people i will miss when i am gone..

1. jacqueline tang! -ur like the sun in my heart .. always ready to brighten up my day when i am sad.. laughing is contageous.. so beware when u laugh with her!


2. nicole!-u are one person who really understands another person's feelings.. thats the beauty of you


3. ky!-ya.u are on of them who i can really open up to.. ^^ **especially when troubled**


4. Aaron!-always there when u need him.. too smart.. haiz..


5. steve.. hmm.. ok la.. he is quite nice.. and his mouth might be chucked full of bad words.. but thats the way he is.. you have no power to change a person.. unless the person realises himself


6. juztea!-so long no call her like that liao lo.. hmm.. sometimes very lol..

i dunno what i am gonna do without you guyz.....^^

help?

haiz.. could this day get any worse?

got called up to Mr. Anthony's office again.. as usual is still about JP.. honestly speaking.. the only reason i join, is because my friends ask me to, and of course i want to train myself to be a great leader..who noes ? he kept saying all kinds of "chaos" happenings in school which the senior prefects couldnt handle.. wat more we? JP?

dont know whether am i capable of doing this responsibility.. i was a prefect at my prmiary school.. aiyo that time play play nia ma.. nothing d la.. u dont take care of class oso can d la.. life back then was so good.. now.. time to face for the worst..

do u think i am ready? i noe this is a question i am suppose to answer.. but seriously though.. am i ready to do this? i dont want to get into unecessary trouble..>.<

so many people Got tagged.. some people have honest, copied>.<*Aaron*, random, and lol answers.. well.. i think its cool.. nothing personal bout it.. my superstar is so pretty!! i love the one last year.. its prettier.. now its like blue and white.. that time during the ceremony, i wish i had a special bow, instead of tilting ur body 45 degress.. thats just plain.. i wish i could like just salute to them.. paiseh eh.. uniformed body not active.. hehe..

my superstar is so sharp! its like a ninja weapon.. u could kill someone with just a poke on the neck.. instant death... it cut me as well.. hurts.. to all superstar recepients.. remember to wear ur superstar when taking ur blazer pic..

afternoon lesson.. bored.. no one in class..i was walking around in the school and saw jacq in the canteen with brenda.. they were eating mee cup..*as usual*..*she doesnt eat anything nutritious btw* then we walked around.. and talked and somehow danced? in front of 2A class... they are more like entertainers.. we even threw money for them.. lol..they earned quite a lot back then.. i think the most is like RM3.. thats consider as a lot. to them.. i think..

then.. we just receive the news that we are gonna perform an Iban and Kenyah traditional dance.. i mean like wat? do we really have to do it? i hate dancing..dancing is just isnt my type.. and no way i am not going to wear anything the school is providing.. it would most likely be something that someone wore before... no way i want to wear it.. and, it seems that this dance is more likely to be a competition.. among the form 2's ..among everything to compete against, dancing? pass..sorry but i dont dance... and ya.. how can u fit 50 ppl in one stage? is that even possible? or some people comes out ? haiz..

this is a 3S' club section.. any member is welcome..

let me introduce some of the active members..

• me! *of course**
• nicole*card maker*and*peacemaker.. she makes any chaos calms down..*
• Aaron*the clown*
• steve* hehe.. no offence but he looks like snow white..>.<>

and some other members

• ky* hmph*
• robyne
• mitch

i think thats probably all.. let me introduce some of the things we did..

3S' club stands for-Secret sharing society..

its more likely a club we just made up.. for fun.. and we dont really share secrets.. watever we do together.. is also consider as an activity.. there are no rules in this club.. so.. we will always be there if u need us.. *tada*

sad.. cant play card games anymore.. got captured by prefects.. its bad enough that Mr. Anthony and Mr. Halim saw it.. now a prefect? lol .. imagine if thats me.. the students would sure hate me by now.. >.

TO BE OR NOT TO BE?? WAT WOULD U CHOOSE?

still thinking of dropping chinese. well, its wats best for me.. i noe, i need to sacrifice my friendship with some of my friends as well.. well, theren is ian, pat, syl..some of them i noe, and i do get loads of benefits from dropping chinese like average increases.. less some lessons in class.. that will be so cool! the only thing i am worried is wat if my permission is not granted? wat if i cant drop?? i want to! if i drop and showing up my face at 3B.. that is not gonna happen.. wat if the demon is still our chinese teacher? that will only make matters worse! after all she trusted me.. and i am dropping chinese? come on! i have my own authorities.. right.. i cant bear to show up my face at 3B**if i still can make it till then**especially when she is teaching.. i just really cant.. that will dissapoint her.. and i really hate dissapointing someone.. especially when that someone is a teacher..

when problems like this approaches.. what should i do? backing and running away from problems just wont solve anything instead it gets worser and worser... i have 2 days thinking for my JP thingy.. really should I?? u be the counselor.. help me within this 2 days!! i need ur opinion as well! help me!

november 2nd.. tagged by eric and ky

hehehe..ky and eric tagged me.. lol.. some questions are just too random.. cant answer..haha..tag u 2 back later..lols.. love listening to westlife songs.. reminds me of my childhood.. sometimes it also reflects my mood.. westlife's song are like mood detectors.. the songs i played always matches my mood.. especially love the song:nothing is impossible.. giving me a lot of hope... and soledad: when i am sad.. really touches my heart.. below are the tagged questions.. enjoy..^^
ps: questions are in blue.. got myself a cool new signature.. look below and check it out! give some comments.. thanks..


1.What is your ambition?
~never thought bout it.. soo many things i am interested in..scientist, engineer* i noe its weird, but i think inhertied this from my father..* too many!

2.Who is more important to you? Friends or boy/girlfriend?
~since i dont have a boyfriend.. just make it friends.. they are like gold in your heart.. they only come once in a while.. and also special creation from God..

3.How often do you think of committing suicide?
~when i think life is pointless and getting bad marks during exams .. but still.. this is a really stupid decision.. life rocks a lot! ending your life just like that just give u a one way ticket to HELL.. dont do that.. its not a really good decision to make and its pretty dumb~

4.Do you think you have enough confidence?
~yes.. but i wish for more.. otherwise the me today wont be blogging now.. the confidence i have.. is wat makes me today..

5.How many babies u wan?
~*vomits* okay... random much? but.. seriously i have never thought bout it and.. i think this question is best kept silent in me.. >.<

6.Do you believe in seeing rainbow after the rain?
~of course! otherwise there wont be a pot of gold at the other side of the rainbow... rainbow.. symbolises peace and harmony.. and a whole new beginning.. to start over.. watever mistakes u made.. its time to undo the mistakes.. and to make the world a better place to live=)

7.Are you yearning for freedom? ~
~definetly! a pair of wings for me to soar high in the sky..

8.I'm glad that I ....
~have a wonderful family and have loads of friends...

9.What's a perfect boy/girlfriend like to you? (list 10)
hmm..
~nice
~kind
~helpful
~smart!
~people with big heart! appearences doesnt matter.. its the inside that counts..^^
~thoughtful//
~caring..
~non-smokers!! TAK NAK!!
~non-alcoholic.. can lar.. but not too alcoholic.. not good for health
~trustworthy..=)

10.What are you really afraid of?
~i am really afraid of ghosts after watching horror movies.. but i like to read the novels like: MR.Midnight.. Singapore true ghost stories.. and grusome stuff.. i dont believe in any of those stuff anyway..><>

11.What is your bad habit?
~lazy.. play too much games.. and never stop.. watch too much episode shows which make me so nervous and wants to know wat happens next...*especially korean movie*..dont bother bout anything..

12.Do you like blogging?
~ya.. of course! but sometimes dunno wat to blog.. >.<

13.Do you cherich every single friendship of yours?
~of course i do.. unlike somebody..*ahem* ..my quote: true friends are like diamonds.. hard to find, untrue friends are just like dried leaves, scattered everywhere..

14.What does flying means to you?
~freedom! and stress relief.. calming.. it would make me feel like the whole world is in my hands.. so peaceful!~!! ...*i believe i can fly!! i believe i can touch the sky.....* it also means that there is still hope waiting for us to grab it..

15.What do you crave for the most currently?
~my true innermost abilities.. and a better life and a brighter future..=)

16.Are u single/relationship?
~ does it look like i am a person with a relationship? pass.. single..

17.Describe the person who tagged you with 7 words.
~specs, braces, pimples, dark, fluffy hair!!, tall?

18.What have you done to yourself to make yourself happy?
~well.. fulfilling my wants and needs! and having all the friends who cared for you..

19.What will you become in another 10 years come?
~hmm.. a human? graduating from UNI... settling down to my adulthood i think.. hopefully

20.What can you say of youself?
~truthfully, things i ever wanted soo much in my life.. cant get it yet! just have to be patient.. and it will come straight to me..i think i pushed my hopes too high.. i think i had a simple life.. so far.. and i wish to continue living like this for the rest of my life.. as long as i am alive..

Instructions: Remove one question from above and add in your personal question. Make a total of 20 questions and tag 5 people. List them out at the end of the post.Notify them in their cbox that they've been tagged. Whoever does the tag will have blessings. hmm.. ME WAN TAG>>

1. SYL
2.GAN
3.NIC
4.AARON
5.SUSHII

no more liao...

~end~

emptiness

haha..yesterday was justine and patricia's birthday.. since i am suppose to be dropping class next year.. i think this is a great oppurtunity to get to know sylvia, ian and patricia better..

haiz.. i enjoyed myself on that day thats for sure.. ate ice cream with french fries..quite gross at first but it was tasty.. watched HSM 3 with ian, syl and pat.. it wasnt that bad as i thought it would be.. i was really impressed ...^^ the movie was good.. two thumbs up to HMS 3! then we drank coffee ...OMG!! starbucks is like heaven! one sip of it.. i felt my brain calmed.. and so released.. i have never felt so good in my life.. the coffee was brilliant.. eventhough for a person like me who normally drink coffee.. starbucks is still better.. i must admit that it had a really great taste...

felt really empty and lonely.. its like as if i am so trapped and so confused with my own emotion .. feeling really frustrated... have too much thoughts in my mind.. its like school is almost coming to an end.. i am so gonna miss school.. dont know why i just said that.. i am so gonna miss u guyz.. life is so dull when there is no one out there..

so confused!! felt so empty! its like there is no one out there anymore its only me alone.. its less than 16 dayz till school is over..if only somebody could shed some light on me.. and comfort me.. that will be great^^

><

happy burfdae to patricia and justine...^^

went to parkson, drank loads of coffee, ate too much popcorn...puked and drop dead..><

haiz.. a year is almost over.. things i wanted to do.. its not yet accomplished.

feeling very confused.. emotion collision.. dont knoe what to do.. bored.. sad .. frustrated.. ARGH!!! i need help!!

silent, silent, silent, silently...><

clouds are getting dark..
so dark..
i cant see anything..
i cant feel anything..
i felt..
the coldness inside me..
the darkness inside me..

so cold..
so dark..
i am so lost ...

then..
rain started pouring..
i looked at myself ..
and i saw nothing..

all i ever wanted..
something in my life..
doesnt even cost a cent..

in this world of silent tears..
tears roll down silently..
the pain is killing me silently..
so silent..
like silent death..

welcome to happy land my friend..
in here..
as you approach..
its gloomy..
dark...
silent..

silent tears..
full of pain and misery..
so painful which is much more worse than a blade..
its cutting my heart..
into bits and pieces..

black..
a colour of darkness..
so dark..
very dark..
watever colour is painted on it...
it still remains dark..

a piano..
a stubborn musical instrument..
plays watever u wanted..
but i took it for granted..
and.. the piano..
uses its sharps and flats..
a straight shot on the head..
silently..

all i seek..
something simple...
moments like this..
i wish that you are here beside me..
to comfort me when i am down...
sadly..
the person i have been waiting for this whole while..
hasnt yet appeared..
still remains as a mystery..

here i stood..
at a corner...
heavy teardrops..
splashing heavily..

this world of silent tears..
will it ever go away..??
this world..
nothing but darkness and pain..

as i approach my teenage life..
i see nothing but silent tears and cries..
i want this world to go away..

my world..
full of silent tears..
will there be anyone out there?
to free me from this world?
this world...
no matter wat i do..
its still the same..

i tried to approach them..
they only threw words at me..
i felt sad..
i felt that its not worth living!
i dont feel like to live anymore..
its not worth it..

after all i did..
just went down the drain..
its completely useless..
i know its good for me..
but still..
no point rite?
no support..
i dont feel anything..

its so hard to breath..
i cant feel my legs and arms..

all i wanted ...
from you..
its just very simple...
its right in front of you..
waiting for you to find out..

*peace be with you*


-Mallory 16.10.2008

i grow up too fast!

i am alive..

i always am..

i have been living and alive for 14 years and 2 days..

all i ever wanted..

i wanted too many things..

things which cant be bought in stores..

i wanted to have happiness..

i want to have loads of friends..

i want to the sun to shine everyday..

i wanted barney to come to life...

i want my beloved stuffed animal to talk to me..

i want my imaginary friend to come to life..

i always wanted to play with purple and brown...

i want to many things..

sadly, all those things i wanted just cant come true..

i was little back then...

as i look upon a basin..

which i couldn't reach when i was little..

now.. the basin is too short for me to use..

i remember i had to ask my teacher to carry me to wash my little hands..

as i grew up..

i tend to put all my wants aside and try to never remember it..

but those are sweet memories of my childhood..

i wanted so many things..

now to think of it..

all my wants are very very precious to me..

why have i put it aside for so long without even thinking bout it!

i grew up too fast!

i want to go back becoming a 5 year old again!

i dont want to grow up! yet..

things i want to experience when i was a kid is not fullfilled..

i want to swim in a pool of chocolate..

i wanted the trees to be made up of ice-cream!

i want the mountains to be made out of layers of cake!

i want the clouds to rain cookies!!!

oh..that will be sweet..

i think i am getting too old for that..

but there is no harm to imagine it rite?

i dont want to be mature!

turn back time...

to when i was little..

if God could turn back time for me..

i would give up anything just to enjoy my childhood again..

i want to grow up..

but i think i am growing up too fast!

slow down time!

i want to watch cartoon!

i even use to think there are monsters under my bed..

i was afraid of many things..

namely..

• electronic devices-my mum says that the plugs are vampires which sucks blood
• lightning-my mum also told me that when you're naughty.. God will struck you down with his lighning..
• water-i have phobias of people drowning.. i hate to go into pools unless i have a float..
• other people@strangers- well, i dont know them..

kinda dumb huh?

to be afraid of such things..

i grew up too fast!!!

i dont want to grow up anymore!!!

maybe a little more then stop ..

give me a period of time to enjoy back my childhood!

next year.. PMR..

after PMR then two years then i am off to college..

then uni..

whoa whoa whoa... slow down..

but its true!

if i could turn back time..

i would resit my UPSR and get straight A's//

i would correct my mistakes which i shouldn't have commited..

i would have a chance to play with my pet dog-cranberry again one last time..

i want so many things..

is it too late to ask for it again?

lol...see too many ppl put this at their blogs..

What Malloryjimmydominic Means

You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated. You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want. You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way! You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic “Type A” personality. You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow. You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily. Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is. You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life. You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you. At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself. You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something. You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense. You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun. You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in. You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising. You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care. You are fair, honest, and logical. You are a natural leader, and people respect you. You never give up, and you will succeed... even if it takes you a hundred tries. You are rational enough to see every part of a problem. You are great at giving other people advice. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are balanced, orderly, and organized. You like your ducks in a row. You are powerful and competent, especially in the workplace. People can see you as stubborn and headstrong. You definitely have a dominant personality. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You are very open. You communicate well, and you connect with other people easily. You are a naturally creative person. Ideas just flow from your mind. A true chameleon, you are many things at different points in your life. You are very adaptable.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

well, ya i kinda agree for watever they wrote ...i am a little rebel and can be nice if i want to...MUAHAHAHAHA

birthday celebration~

a sincere thank you i want to say to all of u who made this special for me.. happy birthday ian! thank you guyz for making this day very special to me.. this is the best birthday i had since last year.. well, last year was great but this wan is even better.. thanks guyz.. i will cherish every moment i had with u guyz..

well it was fun.. we went to eat.. and roller blade.. OMG! roller blading is so painful if u dont know how to roller blade like me.. it took me bout 30 minutes to learn how to rollerblade.. and to stable myself.. i think i fell for more than 4 times.. my elbows and knees are a little bruised ..so.. wat the heck? i still had fun that day.. hehe~~

went to Wonderland.. where there is always LOVE!! but there is no hope..but there is always LOVE>.< hahax.. went singing there.. very loud and noisy...played many games.. hehe.. and we also went to another amusement park.. there we challenged ian to ride the small car which all kids ride.. but he refuses to .. awhh.. its okay ian.. dont cry!

oh yes.. taking picture! well, sorry guyz... for those who did not receive any pictures.. coz mostly its like me, sylv and erix choose d.. so mostly we get the pics.. sorry>
thanks michelle for ur birthday wish.. by the way, @@ron did help u say happy birthday to me.. its all rite.. i also want to thank joshua for his kind consideration and he felt really sorry for unable to attend my birthday celebration.. but still, thanks..

thanks a lot! i dunno how many times to say thank you to u guyz.. u dont know how much that day means a lot to me.. not going to have a celebration like that anymore next year.. well got lar.. but maybe a little delayed.. still deciding wat to give ian yet..

to all of u... ky, justine, @ron,@rix, josh,michelle, jacq, sylv, steve.. u are like the best people in the whole wide world and which i couldnt live without..

ps: to ky: y did u buy that hairband anyway? who is it for ?wakakaka

showing off the stupidty..and some memories

videos are at the bottom! dont miss it! i should have uploaded it a few months ago, but as long as the memories are still in my heart!~

me and ci hui
our messy room

goin to parkson on sports day
after room service cannot find my shoe, haha, under the bed.. lol much?!
christine, me, mel, ci hui, tina, jacq, joyce.. at wisma sanyan

stupid rite?
memories at park city

OUR FEET!



ai ling, feli and me!

a video that u must watch!

JP? freaky..but cool

today it is official.. we are announced as the probationary prefect.. its like OMG~ wow.. somehow i kinda agrees with sonia's mum.. maybe we all arent ready for this stuff.. still, its worth a try.. you will never know unless u try..

in class, we were like told to go and see Miss Tiong.. and we were like wAAT? why go see her? i din do anything wrong.. so.. we, mostly i, were so freaked out.. well, not that much. so.. 10am. we have to do our hair properly, ties up..(i hate it when my ties up.. make me feel so asphysiated..) well, the first impression is always important..

poor me.. i have to like somehow sit near the air-corn.. it was so cold! justine said that my nose turned red.. okay.. not funny so stop laughing. oh ya.. forgotten to tell you, the purpose we went there, its more likely to be a small briefing bout junior prefect.. dunno why i even get chosen.. so ..somehow deep down inside me, is it worth doing this? how did i get into this mess.. i really dunno why i applied for it.. sound pretty stupid huh? well, i cant deny that.. i was kinda stupid back then..

so, enough bout stupidity.. lets talk something more likely ..hmm.. just change the topic..

so.. after all that junior prefect thingy.. *sighs*..then there is chinese. teacher was like counting every 23 people.. luckily i didn't get picked or asked.. phew.. well.. my heart was like beating in madness.. to think of her counting is like counting the time for u to die.. u noe that kind of feeling? hope u do..

still the thought of dropping chinese is still wondering round my mind.. should i or not? well, i want to drop chinese.. but..there are loads of things that i will lose..

hmmm....

thinking..

oh well, that time only think..

this might be the last...or will it?

after long times not blogging.. me got really bored..

still preparing form sem test..

thinking bout dropping chinese..

friendship problem...

so many things going on, makes me go kablooiy... uh.. life is so frustrated when ur dealing with this kind of problem..



i had a friend once, who treated me as a friend.. until then, he took my friendship for granted..wats worsts, he completely turned me down.. i have been living in his shadow for so long.. then one day, i spoke to him on the phone with tears streaming down my cheeks.. to think of it, he is not worth of my tears.. so i hope this friendship we had is through.. i always treated him as a friend, someone who i could look up to. someone who actually cared bout me, who is always there for me when is needed.. ya, he is the one. as time passed, i became a nobody. i become no one.. my life is full of emptiness.. until another friend took me in to be his best friend.. i was so lucky and thankful to have him as my friend.. somebody who actually treated me as somebody.. and most importanty not invisible.. he cherished my friendship.. eventhough he doesnt show it, but i know that deep down in his heart he do.. he has tonnes of friends, he doesnt need me.. so stop living in the past maminix! stop thinking too much and get on with your own life.. he has his own life and i have mine.. so thats all.. this friendship between me and him better comes to an end before things get ugly.. oo i dun wan that to happen.. its ugly enough, so lets just set our priorities and get over with it..



ya.. i've been thinking of dropping class.. to think that chinese teacher actually trusted me and believed in me... if i just turn her down, she will be so dissapointed in me. i cant do that, eventhough i hate her.. God said: "love your enemies as how i have loved you" i dun really really hate her, its just that there are some certain times when she really knows how to drive a person crazy.. i am not so particular bout the teacher.. haiz, the teacher is bad enough, now with the subject? i cant cope with that.. not anymore..well, i used to but now i cant. i am doing this for the best of myself and i cant do this just for the sake of my friends.. ya i wont be with you, but we still could meet up during lunch.. rite? dont show me a long face, u should be happy for me.. ! ian.. save me a spot..

well, if this happens, there will be quite a lot of things that i will lose.. my best friends, well.. i cant do this for the sake of friends... friends come by.. they might not be by your side.. but they will always be at your heart! well, watever my decision is... i am going to reconsider it all right.. but.. once said there is no turning back..

nothing much to say..
so bored..
how la?

fish explode? freeeaky but cool!

i have this pet fish... ya, its dead already.. but there seems to be something wrong bout it... this fish is a cat fish.. i called her delicious.. cause we name all of our fish.. it was my turn to name my fish.. at that time, i was eating something yummy, and the name delicious somehow fits her.. so delicious it is..







at first, before it was dead, i thought it was long dead liao.. however, delicious happened to be hiding. what a miracle! the fish tank is filled with bog scary bullies, and here he is, still alive? well then, that was before, this is wat really happens!? he was still healthy and nothing really happened to him... so after a month, and boof! he is like totally bloated! i mean whoa! u should have seen the size of his stomach! we thought that he was too full, or he was suffering from some disease or wat, so we just took delicious out and put him in another tank...





beware of wat you are about to see... i am not responsible for any vomiting,

isn't this gross? ewe..to think of it... poor delicious!

then, the day comes when i go to kl... ya.. we have to put delicious back into the tank.. cause he might do something naughty! so we put him back in the tank and i put loads of fish food into the tank...

this is where the horror part begun.. when we came back from kl delicious was gone.. OMG! and u noe what? the fish tank was so damn dirty! its like full of reddish, brownish thing all over it! i noe i have been away from like only a week? can it be that dirty? and what's more mysterious is that delicious is gone!

well, for an instance i noe this sounded crazy! but could he like exploded for instant? well, that still remains as a mystery! well, i heard from my maid is that delicious was found dead with whats left is his head! i mean could this be like logic? can fish just explode? i mean ya that doesn't sound logical but somehow i think its true... poor delicios! have fun with your other fishy friends in heaven! well, maybe thats where they go...wherever they are rite now, which i dunno..

well, a little change to the topic..

i've been hearing this song called "with you" sang by chris brown...OMG~ that song is like so so.. melodious... its also a love song.. well then, this song actually says that how much he loved his girlfriend..awww so sweet...well, then i really dunno whats he trying to sing.. then the song just like make my feet dance... first of all, may i please ask? is this song very hiao? or fa ham? hamsap la that means.. i just need to noe.. if it is, uh.. 100% this song will be history in my life..it will be good if somebody just tell me bout the song whether isit u noe...

its good to be back home!

haiz.. too many to write...

this has been the craziest and i mean it all right, its crazy! trip i ever had! lolz

i went to kl... then do u noe who i saw? hahahaha... funny u should mention it! its actually anthony...he is sitting in front of me. poor him, going on a holiday alone? u shouldn't do that u noe.. well, ya he talks a lot.. and SSSHHHhhhhhh...he doesnt know there is a spy behind him anyway... well he didn't talk much, he just blablabla and more snoozing.. and i doze off too because of boredom..

then at kl.. took a taxi to the hotel..that time was at nite..so i am practically half awake and asleep... so the journey from the airport to the hotel was at least one hour. i was suffocated there.. coz the air conditoning wasn't strong enough. and i felt really sick in that car for the road is really winding. i felt like to throw up that time. after 1 hour.. so glad to feel land again.. and i threw up..

haha..the second day.. took a train and had breakfast at a coffee shop.. u guyz should try their wantan mee there...*slurp* delicious.. and as u noe, maminix is always drinking passion fruit.. here is a pic of it..

looks great doesn't it...maminix has to share it coz she cant finish it! its too much for me, u want some? taste great doesn't it, drink it kl style.

then, we rented a car to go to ipoh.. we drove down and i was too tired as usual, then doze off.. here are some pictures at menara condong..uh..that tower was really creepy, u can actually feel the "condong"-ness when you are at the tower, i was really frightened when i felt the building like condong to a side.. dunno wat its like at the leaning tower of pisa, people must be sick going up there..

behold the tower

oh oo, its closed, come again tomoroe

water tank

next day we went to lumut, that is a 2 hour jouney from teluk intan to lumut, the purpose we were going there is actually just to go to pulau pangkor. it is an hour boat ride to get there.that place is really beautiful, especially the beach! OMG! the water is so clear, and the breeze is so calm, i wish i could swim in it, but maminix did not bring spare clothes..too bad, just sight- seeing. pangkor island also has this historical place, its actually a fort, used by the dutch Vs us, well of course..u guyz study history right? and as u all noe, its bout bijih timah... and all those stuff.. here are some pics bout it

whooot! holiday is here

so far..i just blog last nite.. and no ones online, probably u guyz are already on vacation! well then, happy holidayz..

now, i have to spend my holidayz with this two idiots! haiz, anyway i am use to it liao..
have i told you that i am going to apply to become junior prefect? i dunno wat got me so like it somehow? but i just happen to like it, no idea why.. i am already appling to become a librarian, maybe because i think i should be active this year..

oh ya, i dunno wether ky applied or not, thats what made me worried.. oh well, i have nothing to say...

oh goodie, breakfast is ready... buh-bye... my blog is getting more boring isn't it? will update after a week

so many things going on lately...

ya...so many drama...



haiz..today badminton.. it just made me felt so guilty you know? eventhough the cut is just a little! how can i be so evil? am i really that bad? oh no! haiz... i hit hen's hand until it bleeds..ya, i noe your reaction will be like...:" how can maminix be so EVIL?" am i right? ya i now, i just guessed it...



congratulations to tky, he won the tittle MALAYSIA's next top model... aiyo, malaysia nia mar... no big deal anyway...



that day 1st day being a librarian... its just so LOL! there is this guy who is called Yang Yang.. i thought it was his nickname, but somehow it isn't...and then we were like..:"HAHAHAHA" then :"SSSSSSSSSSHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!" OOopsy!we are in a library... ya i noe.. the colour codes are kinda weird..



and today, i jus received news about the junior prefect thingy... so without any furthermore thinking, i just wrote a letter and send it to our one and only principle...YAY! clap ur hands...NOT!



i really had loads of things to say, but i just ran out of things to say... oh ya, there is one thing i want to say....justine cant ride a bike... maybe she could, or could she? ya... let us all hope that she would learn how to ride one day.. like a baby..taking its 1st step to walk.. i think..

haha..ky... i am so proud of u... u must eat u noe? eating a balanced diet always keeps you strong and fit... haha... i made ky spend RM 10 at Pete's... lolz...

seriously... i have nothing to say... will repost whenever i want too!

sports day...like i care?

*drum roll*

introducing...

the one and only!!!!!

that is so rare....

please welcome our next 2 finalists of america's or should i just say malaysia's next top model??who will make it to the finals?

who will be awarded malaysia's next top model? who will take their walk as malaysia's well known model? who noes? lets now introduce the 2 finalists with their "attractive close up pics" without futher notice... let me introduce u to...

introducing americas(malaysias next top model)

1.tan kang yao

and also..introducing

2.ian gan!!!!

with his front cover latest magazine!

*claps hands*

and some special guests///

we... the parkson gang of the 1st day

america's model approaching a "human"

feeling frustrated? poor u... have ur beauty sleep!

assam... dun look at camera la...camera bao diao!
aha... sports day... the day which we all turn to lobsters... anyway... still so sad.. our group got last at the kawad competition, to me? it doesn't matter somehow.. winner or loser... ur part of the team.. thats what it matters.. and also..still.. i had lots of fun!



today i saw ky competiting at the competition... and i was like OMG! never underestimate the person who looks dumb.. to be honest seriously! (to ky: this is a good thing so dont think its bad ok?) and still, not bad lerh, can get third place.. not bad for a person like him.. if i? the only way i could do that has only one way: buldozing... i mean how hard can it be to buldoze? but and yet still? u get last...



hmmm... din get a chance to see justine run though... but however.. she can win de la.. that wan i no nid to say...



yesterday raptai at stadium.. human was in charge of the flag.. and i was so amazed somehow.. *(please dun say i'm from uk ok?)* but still, the flag got stuck and they had to do it all over again.. but today they did fine.. i even prayed for them... to make sure the flag was right where it supposed to be.. thank you lord for answering my prayers...



after we kawad..i just dont seem to get it.. our lintas pentas.. we did great and we were so neat.. i had that confidence just at that moment that i noe we will be top 2... but somehow.. things changed.. which i dunno.. a little change to the history... its always saturn that wins..now its venus.. anyway..congrats venus! God changes things and predicts things.. so.. nothing is the same always..



ahaha.. we went to parkson..had so much fun.. and as usual we walked... as cch leads the way..all i can say that if he becomes a forest ranger next time, dun follow him, most probably the tourist will be the ones guiding not him.. somehow, yet we made it to parkson alive.. it was a dirty battle out there...so be aware! i hope!



at parkson... i was terrified by the toy department... especially this one toy... its like its eyes are so human.. (i mean i noe thats how robots are suppose to work) but this one is so... so ...female sheep!(which means ewe) if u were there... its so so .. haiz.. what the crap! all i can say that the toy is so weird.. here is a video i took...(look at the bottom and see)



ah... first of all i want to say sorry to our beloved"mary" for we made fun of him.. u noe the store near the name sticker printing on the top floor? the one parkson section top floor? there is a shop in front at the counter full of sheeps! oh oo! mary isnt there..how? haiz..let the wolf eat them..poor mary..all ur lambs are now cacat.. i think...and i hope not.. and i saw a bikini which is also full of sheeps...and ...its free size.. mary is perfect for that...*(bear in mind..mary is a guy)* who is mary u ask? his name shall remain anymous..if u noe then keep quiet lo...



eat at kfc...

had so much fun today...

eventhough maminix din win...

its okay...

its just sports and dun take it like such a big deal!

try harder and u shall achieve better results next time!



here are the videos i promised:

*(i never knew the eyes would move thats y i freaked!)*

ky's blog... the song was really touching! i almost cried after listening to that song.. it reminds of what had happened which i now dun wan to say..its just too sad to say.. and at that same time that song played at the radio... the day my pet died... october 23rd 2003.. i luv u..eventhough you are in heaven...




i still remembered the day my pet died.. thats like the saddest moment of my life.. that was the 1st most well obedient pet i had ever since when i was 7... i miss u... hope u are always out there watching over me...

something i wrote dedicated to all cs members..

PS://there is a little video at the bottom so dun exit first

this is a little something i wanted to dedicate to all choral speakers especially Miss Esther, Mr sii kheng and ah lu.. well, its not consider as a poem.. hope u enjoy it.. just dun say its lame ok?

well, this is how life starts and ends..

yet somehow we must be parted..

why i ask must thou be so cruel?

a trip to terengganu...

national level...

bring glory to sarawak..

my heart now has fallen apart...

for the thing i love most ...

has been parted away from my life..

why i ask must thou be so evil?

tears shed...

happiness shared..

we are a big family..

which will never be departed...

eventhough we might not see each other that often..

all those memories..

has just come to an end..

it just ended like that..

no more pages to continue those sweet memories..

a big fullstop..

you guyz will always be in my heart...

.....

no more forever...

is this how it's suppose to end?

a sad story...

one day...

we shall triumph again..

and then we shall triumph at national level!

...

this story my dear friends...

eventhough it really ends..

we shall always treasure the moments we had each other..

...

tears keep rolling and streaming down my eyes..

why? why? why is this happening to us?

why must it be us???

i ask why ? and i demand an answer now!

speak or BE OFF!!!

haiz...

as tears are in my eyes..

a heart broken person..

as i see the others..

my eyes will be moist with tears..

and i cant stand it...

somehow...

this bittersweet memory...

just keep repeating in my mind..

and the most unforgettable memory ..

all those precious moment..

sometimes i pray to God to turn back time...

and i wished that i had been serious in various practices..

now i really regret...

life is truly bittersweet..

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precious moments...

eventhough its just gone in a blink of an eye..

my heart..

is still fulled with all of it..

teachers...

i will never forget you..

they are like a friend,

who is always there to help..

who gave us hope to go on!

i will never forget u guyz!

u helped us a lot!

eventhough that maybe we are not going to nationals..

i will still wait ..

no matter how long it takes..

and meet u in KL..

that will be the greatest moment of my life!

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as tears are now streaming down my cheecks (dunno spell correct ma)

i now bid farewell..

to all my departed friends..

eventhough i dun see you everyday..

all those moments will be sealed in my heart...

never will i let go...

never...

ever...

forever..

well as the story goes..

there is always a bright light there waiting for us..

it just take a matter of time for us to reach the bright light..

we are in a tunnel..

wondering around..

wondering aimlessly..

doing nothing..

one day..

that bright light will shine at us..

and thats the moment ...

i will really cry the heart out of myself..

as i look back my the pictures in my cameras..

those pictures..

flashing in my mind..

reminds me a lot of things..

especially the things that you spend your time with your friends..

those videos,

we took..

is a little piece of puzzle ..

which needs to be put back in my mind..

i sometimes ask myself...

is it truly over?

why is life so unFAIR?!

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as there was once a fairytale foretold..

a princess was locked in a tower,

waiting for her dear prince charming,

so handsome and glamorous..

she was waiting for her prince charming to save her..

but many times attempt..

yet..

he still failed..

four limbs tore apart...

and ..

dead..

(maybe i am being a little carried away)><

will we end up like the princess in the tower?

locked away from something you loved?

this my dear friends..

i don't know either..

we just have to wait..

till we are saved from the locked tower..

and have the answer..

we all have been waiting for..

a tunnel is dark..

but it will be bright one day later..

a true friend,

will cherish every moment we share..

now i shall depart..

and the memory of choral speaking in my mind..

will be the back of my mind..

whenever i think of it..

makes me weak ..

total breakdown..

i tried to keep this memory away ...

and move on..

i know i cant do that..

cause all the things we share together are countless

i will miss all of you!!!

MUAKZ.

CS is always in my HEART!

PS:// this is the 1st time i wrote a poem and cried at the same time... which is also the last time i am gonna write this poem.. so... enjoy...and please dun give bad remarks bout it... eventhough i noe its somehow horrible... just hope u enjoy it...

here is a movie clip.. the 1st one failed... but the second one is the real one

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