this is dedicated to a friend whom i shall never forget

to a dear friend and also friends whom i shall never forget..

i was there when you need me..

i was there by your side..

being a friend to you..

loyal, trustworthy friend..

but were you there when i needed you?

i always knew what you're thinking..

it isn't hard to guess..

all those complications buzzing in your mind..

we worked it out..

but were you there when i'm toubled?

as time passes,

the you i remembered slowly faded from my sight.

i can no longer see the "you" i remembered a year ago..

you slowly faded from my mind..

and at the same time,

wishing you to be back again..

why did things change?

i love it the way it is..

i just don't understand sometimes..

maybe we are actually different from what we think..

i was showered with gifts from you..

i was showered with cards from you...

i appreciated it..

but you can never grant me one simple thing..

where was your friendship?

friends,

they may come and go..

but just remember..

though you can't see them all the time,

but you'll always remember them in your heart..

the words just fell out of you..

it stabbed my heart real hard..

i had to be strong..

to face what's going on..

gathered all the shattered pieces of myself..

aided my bleeding heart..

pulled myself back together..

to be a better person..

i moved forward..

ignoring the past..

it's like as if nothing has ever happened

why did you change?

why? i don't understand!

if only things were cool and laid back..

this won't even happen

i missed the good times..

when we're all together..

until..

things turned ugly..

we weren't the same again..

sometimes i wonder..

does the meaning of "frienship forever" still exist?

the line is visible..

it's drawn between us..

i can't possibly cross that line ever again..

not anymore..

not after all we had been through..

please..

not anymore..

how i wish to get rid of that line..

how i wish for everything to be the same again!

that boundary between us..

i missed you my friend..

but we should stay where we are..

it's what's best for us..

i don't want any more arguements!

i don't want any more tears..

i just want peace..

peace to the inner core of my life..

the rainbow shone brightly in the sky..

how beautiful and magestic it looked with it's colourful colours..

each colour symbolizes the beauty of the rainbow..

together they stand..

they could be the most beautiful thing in the world mankind has ever seen..

imagine..

what would it be like if any of the colours are gone?

will it ever be the same again?

my friend..

we're the rainbow..

each of us have our own good and bad points..

each of us are different..

that's what make us special..

our specialty created that rainbow..

the rainbow of a beautiful and a long lasting frienship..

as the rainbow shoned brightly in the sky..

dark clouds came in a swift..

followed by thunders and lightnings..

with the heavy downpour..

it has been dark for ages..

until one day when the rainbow decided to shine again..

it was different..

it was totally disfigured..

it wasn't the same old rainbow i remembered..

the colours were faded..

some of the colours were gone..

why?

why is this happening?!

my dear friend..

though i know you have been not yourself lately these few days..

but remember this..

whatever happens..

i will still be there to support you and help you ..

things that happened in the past were gone and are never coming back..

and i forgive you for what you did..

eventhough it's hard to..

forgive and forget ..

move on..

my dear friend,

we have our differences..

and i'm sure you know that as well..

but sometimes..

it's still best for us to draw a line..

if we're too over..

things may turn even uglier..

and i don't want that to happen..

and i am sure you don't want to..

it's what's best for each of us..

it's better to cherish your friend every now and then..

before it's too late..

my friend..

you changed a lot ..

you changed from the silly looking person to a person i don't know anymore..

i don't understand you anymore..

it's as if our line just cut off..

we're not connected ..

but one thing is for sure..

you will still be the same to me ..

in my heart..

my friend..

wherever you are..

i hope that when you get this message

i hope and pray that you will change yourself for the better..

last but not least..

before i depart from the side of your line..

let me ask you a simple question...

: where were you when you're gone?

to my blog readers..

if you have a friend out there..

whoever they may be..

cherish them with all you could..

cherish them with all you have..

don't wait till when they're gone..

then to cherish them..

true friends don't grow on trees..

and it's difficult to find one who you truly trust and believe..

bad friends are like leaves..

scattered on the ground..

it means nothing..

but just a pile of CRAP/TRASH

good friends..

they are like diamonds..

except that they are more valuable than diamonds..

nothing can be compared to that..

not even it's value..

now.. lets take a moment to cherish our friends.. walk up to them and say:" you're my best friend!" or even give them a call.. talk to them just to let them know that they're someone special to you in life..

life can be meaningless.. i agree with that term..

but one things for sure.

don't forget to live life to the fullest..

mallo's

i love you people!

you're the rainbow of my life..

the sun that warms my heart..

the loyal companion ...

the umbrella that protects me from the "rain"..

the shelter that keeps me safe..

the knight that defends me..

the aider to a bleeding heart..

the one that keeps me laughing all the time...

i love you guys!

no one in a million years can ever replace you..

you can be found only once in a lifetime!

i would be nothing without you!

and thus.. i would like to take the oppourtunity to cherish my own friends as well

calvin aka mallo

you can be a serious pain in the neck..

but honestly..

you're just there watching out for us..

you're always there to help..

i am lucky to have you as a friend..

stephen aka.. snow white?

well, you don't think before you act..

but deep down inside of you..

you're a nice guy..

you are always there when people need you..

i am lucky to have you as a friend

sylv aka the Sun Godess ( haha.. to me la)

you're there when i needed you..

you pulled my socks up again when i'm troubled...

you aided my bleeding heart with your kindness and care..

you're the sun of my heart..

who warms me up when i'm blue..

you're the music that keeps me going..

your never ending of caring and kindness..

it's what made you special..

and i am glad that God made you..

to be my best, trustworthy and a reliable friend..

i'm lucky to have you as a friend..

josh aka the knight (also from what i think)

you're there when i need you..

you fight for the things you wanted..

all for justice..

you want what's right..

you don't want to be blamed for nothing you commited

you're the brave knight..

who fought the endless battle..

to defend our friendship..

i am lucky to have you as a friend..

to the rest of my friends..

i just lost my words of cherishing ..

but deep down still..

i will cherish you always..

cheers!

live life to the fullest..

Updated.. for now..

phew.. after so many weeks and days not blogging, just felt weird.. it's not like me to stop doing something i usually do.

So, summarizing for what i did for the past few weeks..

Let's see, yeah test was over.. but the outcome isn't going to look pretty in my report card. Well, thank heavens this is just some stupid ol' exam.. it's not PMR.. haha..Stupid exam.. well, come to think of it, there is only a few months left.. Time passes by fast huh? i was just thinking about the same thing.

Uh - Huh..

A few days ago, Sylv, me, Calbin, Steve, Josh, Y2k, KY.. Jus.. went to fun fair.. yeah, it was fun. The most exciting ride was that spinning thing that goes round and round and a random guy shuffles in the middle. It was so good that i had to ride it twice.. haha! but it was costly though. 1 token costs RM2. Wow.. haha.. but still i did have a great time. The Ghost House was a complete Rip OFF! it's only 1 round..and it's lame.. yeah i know i screamed.. haha! before we went in to the ghost house, we were holding hands together.. so scared.. haiz.. Justine didn't want to go though, knowing her scared of ghosts.. first we entered, it was completely dark. Then all i heard was random people screaming.. and flashing lights go on and off.. but the most scariest part was the some sort of mummy from the dead.. wrapped up in some random bandages i guess.. hooked there.. yeah, i think that was the most scariest one.. to me.. honestly, i don't go into the ghost house because i wanted to.. it's cause i don't want to miss out the fun.

Then, to the Octopus!

I really enjoyed that ride! haha! when you're riding, you can feel yourself being thrown around.. that's the best part of it, and also the scariest part.. Practically throughout the ride, Sylv and I.. our mouths were open.. haha.. after we got down from the ride.. we instantly lost our voice.. The guys then insisted that we ride on the Apollo.. some sort of random rocket thingy.. looks fun, but i dare not ride on it. The last time i rode on that thing, i was rushing to the toilet puking, honestly. After riding it, Josh's face turned totally pale, like he was about to faint or something. ( I warned you, didn't i?) Soo.. he had a hard time pulling himself back together.. hmm.. yeah..

Just went and watched Night at the museum 2 last night, no offence but honestly i find it kind of lame, i mean the ending was so predictable. Won't it be more interesting if the brother of the mean egyptian king came and fought him himself? Gosh.. good movies are really hard to find these days.. Well, everyone's a critic. But, this movie was definetly better than Alien VS Monsters. The time when i went to watch, sound system went haywire, and the monsters doesn't look really hilarious like the one's in the trailer..

i bought Sims 2 games recently, and i am having a hard time finding a solution to play the game. If only i was a computer geek, i would have been playing it by now. All these, copying, pasting.. .. and the crack files. Gosh, i am so not good at this. Well, I gave up that for now. haha..

My dad recently bought psp's for my younger siblings. Lucky them. haha. I love the graphics, and the sound system, and i can't believe that i can go online with it. I could go to facebook, my blog.. but i can't chat or play any games on facebook. But i still could do all the random stuff like taking quizzes, adding friends..

SO... i changed my blog layout.. what do you think? any comments or feedbacks.. please let me know.. i need a change for my blog anyway.. haha..

Haiz..

Holidays are coming to an end!! NO! well, nothing lasts forever.. does it? if only it does..

oh yeah, i am currently still recovering from my nausea... that's not my worst.. the worst? don't even ask that question, you'll end up seeing me throwing up at you.

So.. yeah.. that's practically everything about it.. lazy to blog ler.. haha..