love story...

We were both young when I first saw you....

I close my eyes and the flashback starts...

I'm standing there...

on a balcony in summer air...

See the lights...

see the party....

the ball gowns...

See you make your way through the crowdand say hello....

Little did I know...

That you were Romeo;

you were throwing pebbles,

And my daddy said, "Stay away from Juliet."

And I was crying on the staircase,

begging you, 'Please, don't go.'

And I said,"Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone

I'll be waiting;

all there's left to do is run.

You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess

It's a love story

- baby just say 'Yes.'

So I sneak out to the garden to see you.

We keep quiet cause we're dead if they knew.

So close your eyes...

escape this town for a little while...

'Cause you were Romeo,

I was a scarlet letter,

And my daddy said "Stay away from Juliet,"

But you were everything to me...

I was begging you,

'Please, don't go,

'And I said,"Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone.

I'll be waiting;

all there's left to do is run.

You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess

It's a love story

baby just say 'Yes.'

Romeo save me;

they're tryin' to tell me how to feel.

This love is difficult,

but it's real...

Don't be afraid....

we'll make it out of this mess.

It's a love story

- baby just say 'Yes.'

Oh....

I got tired of waiting,

Wondering if you were ever comin' around.

My faith in you was fading...

When I met you on the outskirts of town.

And I said,"Romeo save me

I've been feeling so alone.

I keep waiting for you but you never come.

Is this in my head?

I don't know what to think

He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring and said

"Marry me, Juliet.

you'll never have to be alone.

I love you and that's all I really know.

I talked to your dad,

go pick out a white dress;

It's a love story

- baby just say

'Yes.'

Oh, oh.

We were both young when i first saw you...

the best dream i ever had

why is life sometimes so difficult?

i feel so confuzzled.. confused...

where am i??

i need someone to guide me back!!

i am lost..

in the midst of nowhere..

as days past..

its nothing but homework and tests..

my heart sank..

just as if the titanic sank into the depths of the ocean..

i feel so confused!!

i need to break out from this ..

and be how like i am suppose to be before..

my heart is so emotional now..

anger is the only emotion that is surrounding me..

its like anger took over my life..

i find things difficult ..

a friend approaches me..

told me a joke..

i find it difficult to laugh..

its like i dont know how to laugh anymore!

mad at just about everything..

eventhough i do laugh..

its just pretending..

not from the heart..

and i dont even mean it..

at moments like this..

i just feel like being alone for a while ..

not seeing anyone..

just me..

only me..

i am a counselor in need of a counselor..

please gimme time to think through..

alone..

i feel scared..

the cold wind blowing ,brushing through my hair..

and cold rain splashing on me..

i cant feel myself..

i feel like a souless body..

wandering around aimlessly..

where am i going??

i feel the air surrounding me so dry..

and my lungs felt tighter..

i cant breathe properly..

the world's closing in..
and everything seems so dark...

pull yourself together.

there is a way..

i closed my eyes..

trying to get myself to think..

then i fell asleep ..

then my imagination and dream took me off flying ..

to an empty field..

suddenly water started to fill up the field.

as water started to reach my knee..

i kept running..

finding a way out..

i'm trapped..

there is no way out..

water starts to reach my arms..

i began to panic..

where am i?

i want to get out of this drastic place!

as i kept running..

its like there was an endless path ahead of me..

whats the use of running?

when you know that there is no way out?

i burst into tears..

is it time ?

is this how my life ends?

then someone tapped me at the back..

i turned around..

i saw a man..

wearing a white robe..

i couldnt picture how he looked like..

he held out his hand..

and i grabbed it..

as i grabbed his hand..

i feel a strong feeling of love..

and its like a solution to my problems..

all of a sudden..

the water stopped..

and everything was back to normal..

then he said to me..

"dont be afraid ..

everything will be ok"..

his words comforted me..

and i felt safe..

then i continued to walk the field

then..

i came to two paths..

one of the path leads towards a big, jeweled door...

with a very big tunnel just up ahead of me...

even the floors are made of JEWELS~

the other is a muddy path, grass grew everywhere..

and there is a small tunnel..

i was confused..

why 2 paths?

and whats so different about them?

i tried the path with jewels everywhere..

maybe i could get back to where i came from through there..

there was a person guarding the door..

politely..

i asked that person:" how can i get out from here?"

he told me:" just go pass this door "

"where is this place?" i asked

he didnt utter a word..

and just left me there confused

**** when im dreaming.. i dont seem to know that im dreaming..=.=******

something tells me that i shouldnt enter there..

Oh Lord.. what are you trying to tell me?

slowly..

i backed away from there..

then i went to the other path..

someone was standing there..

i was very scared..

lost..

cold..

i asked the same questions..

"how can i get out of here?"

he pointed me towards a direction..

as i walked towards that direction..

the field started to fill up with water again..

its like as if i am trapped in a bottle filled with water..

then i was scared..

really scared..

i prayed hard..

and the next thing is..

the same person with a white robe approached me..

he was trying to tell me something..

then i realised what he was trying to tell me...

the solution to all my problems..

this dream really taught me a HUGE lesson...

whenever we feel troubled or just confused and needed a way out..

pray to God.. and the solution will come to you in an instant..

OH LORD.. THANK YOU FOR GUIDING ME OUT OF THIS PLACE.. I COULD NOT HAVE DONE IT WITHOUT YOU.. IT IS YOU WHO GUIDE US.. TOWARDS U..

the lord filled my heart with happiness .. and i couldnt have been happier..

THANK YOU LORD..

*******THIS PRAYER WE ASK THROUGH CHRIST, OUR LORD, AMEN***********

Ash Wednesday..the beginning of Lent

ASH WEDNESDAY

ah.. today is Ash Wednesday..

to all the people out there.. whom are protestants.. halo.. i am a Roman Catholic.. not many protestants know bout ash wednesday.. so let me briefly explain..

*clears throat*

In the Western Christian calendar, Ash Wednesday is the first day of Lent and occurs forty-six days (forty days not counting Sundays) before Easter. It falls on a different date each year, because it is dependent on the date of Easter; it can occur as early as February 4 or as late as March 10.
Ash Wednesday gets its name from the practice of placing ashes on the foreheads of the faithful as a sign of repentance. The ashes used are gathered after the Palm Crosses from the previous year's Palm Sunday are burned. In the liturgical practice of some churches, the ashes are mixed with the Oil of the Catechumens (one of the sacred oils used to anoint those about to be baptized), though some churches use ordinary oil. This paste is used by the priest who presides at the service to make the sign of the cross, first upon his own forehead and then on each of those present who kneel before him at the altar rail. As he does so, he recites the words: "Remember (O man) that you are dust, and to dust you shall return."

haiz.. today cant go to mass.. not to say cant go.. no transport plus parents arent free and they are currently working.. ian was fasting today.. but he barely ate at recess .. i ate recess and fast at lunch.. so its like ian practically hadnt eaten yet.. DONT FAINT TWIN! XD!

Oh Lord.. forgive me for not attending mass today... i wanted to.. but i cant.. haiz.. wondering what will happen in mass today..

when i mentioned ash wednesdays to almost every protestants i noe.. they were like.. "wut? whats that?" well.. u guyz made me totally speechless.. i forgotten that u guyz never celebrated it.. my sincere apologies...

okay then.. Ash Wednesday is the beginning of Lent.. so by now you would be asking.. what is Lent.? Rite?? see... i can read ur minds!!HAHAX!XD!

Lent, in some Christian denominations, is the forty-day-long liturgical season of fasting and prayer before Easter. The forty days represent the time Jesus spent in the desert, where according to the Bible he endured temptation by Satan. Different churches calculate the forty days differently.
The purpose of Lent is the preparation of the believer—through prayer, penitence, almsgiving and self-denial—for the annual commemoration during Holy Week of the Death and Resurrection of Jesus, which recalls the events linked to the Passion of Christ and culminates in Easter, the celebration of the Resurrection of Jesus Christ.
In Western Christianity (with the exception of the Archdiocese of Milan which follows the Ambrosian Rite), Lent begins on Ash Wednesday and concludes on Holy Saturday.The six Sundays in Lent are not counted among the forty days because each Sunday represents a "mini-Easter", a celebration of Jesus' victory over sin and death.
In those churches which follow the Byzantine tradition (e.g. Eastern Orthodox and Eastern Catholics), the forty days of Lent are calculated differently: the fast begins on Clean Monday, Sundays are included in the count, and it ends on the Friday before Palm Sunday. The days of Lazarus Saturday, Palm Sunday and Holy Week are considered a distinct period of fasting.

one more thing.. i would like to dedicate this picture to Ian Gan.. for being such a wonderful twin..and also being a good sport.. TWINS FOREVER!!

just do me a favour ian.. never lose faith on God and ya.. u need to get urself baptised..^^

its miie(left) and IAN (right)

**this is the reedited version by miie... want the original go to facebook ...

what i have done for the week...

damnit.. i just cut my fringe last week and i look like a little cleopatra freak.. no la.. actually its just ok.. i am just exaggerating..LOL...people will stop by and say.. WHAT? u cut your hair? ya.. i noe.. surprising isnt it? LOL..

so ya.. my fringe is like hers.. from a side view.. told u it looked almost like cleopatra...

soo many exams.. soo little time.. i practically pressed down by all the exams in the school.. not long ago there was a gerak gempur(goverment exam) now.. its mid sem... its already the middle of the semester.. and i dont feel anything! time passes soo fast when you are enjoying.. =p

and FYI: dont expect a picture of me on my blog.. cause i dont think i am ready to reveal myself yet to the camera..

AMERICAN IDOL..

my sincere apologies you guyz.. apparently it wasnt at all only the top 3 people.. there are still 36 contestants.. and apparently the pictures below are the only top 3 of group 1.. remember the contestants were categorised into 4 rooms? well these are one of the groups..sorry!! the only reason why i thought it was already top 3 its because there were only 3 seats left.. i didnt watch the previous episode of that show...sorry...XD!! this week they will start with group 2..

michael

danny

alexus

they performed and made a real good impression on the judges.. i think danny or alexus have the potential.. they are not soo bad.. they are actually quite good.. when michael was announced that he was in the list of the top 3.. he nearly fell flat on the floor.. but with another person's help he regained back his strength and knowing this was not at all a dream.. if this was a dream.. keep on dreaming cause you dont get these kind of chances now and often.. i noticed that people vote not only for their voices.. but also by their appearence.. or attitude.. when coming to gorup 1, Tatiana was a great singer.. maybe America didnt vote for her because of her being soo annoying.. but she do have a great voice.. unfortunately.. her fate is sealed.. so like this week they are definetly sure gonna vote for Adam Lambert because of his good looks.. go up to the official website.. they are 172++ pages of comments on his good looks.. not surprised... =.=

i dunno why i suddenly got so interested in American Idol.. probably because of cousins and friends.. and most importantly David songs which made me soo wanna hear more of it.. haiz..

Piano!! =.=..

music is my passion..my heart!.. my soul..

it helps me to express my inner feelings.. happy, sad, joyful, anger... u name it!!

music brings out the innermost of myself..

seeing thigs in a different view..

music adds passion into my life..

music is everything to me!

and it makes the whole world go round..

i love music!! but i just dont have time for it!! studies! exams!!! PMR!? GAH!

i cant just push away something i love like that..

but i cant.. i need a lot of time to practice..

i do practice ..

but i dont put soo much time into it as i did last year!

am i trying to push music away?

i hope not! plus.. lucky thing i am not sitting for my piano exam this year.. otherwise i have to start juggling up my time between .. church activities.. school.. studies.. exams!! GAH! i dont understand something.. people who are soo busy in school manage to achieve great marks.. and here i am.. joining nothing in school and not doing as good as them.. curious.. just curious..

RAVENHEARST!!

OMG! that game.. it really creeps me out! i dont mean to sound like a kid.. its like there are ghosts appearing..(this i am not afraid) ..and just like in the game there was a window.. and there was a shadow.. i nearly freaked out! i really have these sorts of phobias because there was a robbery occured at my house last time and there was this shadow out there.. and its still freaking me out and haunting me.. eventhough it happened a long time ago.. that is the only thing that freaks me out.. for the rest.. u can see dolls.. with huge, blinking eyes..and calling out:"mama.."...this so reminds me of chucky.. but who cares?? i am not afraid of that!! and there are blood coming out of the dolls mouth.. somewhat ghoulish.. statues coming to life.. ghosts which talks to you.. scary sound effects.. remains of peoples body... and all that u can name it..

if you are gonna play this game.. if u think that you are afraid or have any phobias with any of the statements stated above.. just stay away from it.. it will haunt for the rest of your life if u play it and yet not thinking what are the consequences that are gonna happen to you.. only mature players.. or players which are somewhat not afraid of ghostly stuff are allowed to play.. children below 10 are not advised to play..LOL and there are also plenty of brain teasing puzzles.. smart people out there?? if u think ur smart.. go and play and crack these puzzles.. or on second thought just crack your brain.. =)

the front door

brain -teasing puzzles

the official front cover

happy valentines day!

love is blind..
no one can actually predict what it means..
if u look up the dictionary..
it means a strong feeling towards a person .. or an object..

Every February, across the country, candy, flowers, and gifts are exchanged between loved ones, all in the name of St. Valentine. But who is this mysterious saint and why do we celebrate this holiday?

The history of Valentine's Day — and its patron saint — is shrouded in mystery. But we do know that February has long been a month of romance. St. Valentine's Day, as we know it today, contains vestiges of both Christian and ancient Roman tradition. So, who was Saint Valentine and how did he become associated with this ancient rite? Today, the Catholic Church recognizes at least three different saints named Valentine or Valentinus, all of whom were martyred.
One legend contends that Valentine was a priest who served during the third century in Rome. When Emperor Claudius II decided that single men made better soldiers than those with wives and families, he outlawed marriage for young men — his crop of potential soldiers. Valentine, realizing the injustice of the decree, defied Claudius and continued to perform marriages for young lovers in secret. When Valentine's actions were discovered, Claudius ordered that he be put to death.


Other stories suggest that Valentine may have been killed for attempting to help Christians escape harsh Roman prisons where they were often beaten and tortured.
According to one legend, Valentine actually sent the first 'valentine' greeting himself. While in prison, it is believed that Valentine fell in love with a young girl — who may have been his jailor's daughter — who visited him during his confinement. Before his death, it is alleged that he wrote her a letter, which he signed 'From your Valentine,' an expression that is still in use today. Although the truth behind the Valentine legends is murky, the stories certainly emphasize his appeal as a sympathetic, heroic, and, most importantly, romantic figure. It's no surprise that by the Middle Ages, Valentine was one of the most popular saints in England and France.
While some believe that Valentine's Day is celebrated in the middle of February to commemorate the anniversary of Valentine's death or burial — which probably occurred around 270 A.D — others claim that the Christian church may have decided to celebrate Valentine's feast day in the middle of February in an effort to 'christianize' celebrations of the pagan Lupercalia festival.

In ancient Rome, February was the official beginning of spring and was considered a time for purification. Houses were ritually cleansed by sweeping them out and then sprinkling salt and a type of wheat called spelt throughout their interiors. Lupercalia, which began at the ides of February, February 15, was a fertility festival dedicated to Faunus, the Roman god of agriculture, as well as to the Roman founders Romulus and Remus.

To begin the festival, members of the Luperci, an order of Roman priests, would gather at the sacred cave where the infants Romulus and Remus, the founders of Rome, were believed to have been cared for by a she-wolf or lupa. The priests would then sacrifice a goat, for fertility, and a dog, for purification.

The boys then sliced the goat's hide into strips, dipped them in the sacrificial blood and took to the streets, gently slapping both women and fields of crops with the goathide strips. Far from being fearful, Roman women welcomed being touched with the hides because it was believed the strips would make them more fertile in the coming year. Later in the day, according to legend, all the young women in the city would place their names in a big urn. The city's bachelors would then each choose a name out of the urn and become paired for the year with his chosen woman. These matches often ended in marriage. Pope Gelasius declared February 14 St. Valentine's Day around 498 A.D. The Roman 'lottery' system for romantic pairing was deemed un-Christian and outlawed. Later, during the Middle Ages, it was commonly believed in France and England that February 14 was the beginning of birds' mating season, which added to the idea that the middle of February — Valentine's Day — should be a day for romance. The oldest known valentine still in existence today was a poem written by Charles, Duke of Orleans to his wife while he was imprisoned in the Tower of London following his capture at the Battle of Agincourt. The greeting, which was written in 1415, is part of the manuscript collection of the British Library in London, England. Several years later, it is believed that King Henry V hired a writer named John Lydgate to compose a valentine note to Catherine of Valois.


In Great Britain, Valentine's Day began to be popularly celebrated around the seventeenth century. By the middle of the eighteenth century, it was common for friends and lovers in all social classes to exchange small tokens of affection or handwritten notes. By the end of the century, printed cards began to replace written letters due to improvements in printing technology. Ready-made cards were an easy way for people to express their emotions in a time when direct expression of one's feelings was discouraged. Cheaper postage rates also contributed to an increase in the popularity of sending Valentine's Day greetings. Americans probably began exchanging hand-made valentines in the early 1700s. In the 1840s, Esther A. Howland began to sell the first mass-produced valentines in America.


According to the Greeting Card Association, an estimated one billion valentine cards are sent each year, making Valentine's Day the second largest card-sending holiday of the year. (An estimated 2.6 billion cards are sent for Christmas.)
Approximately 85 percent of all valentines are purchased by women. In addition to the United States, Valentine's Day is celebrated in Canada, Mexico, the United Kingdom, France, and Australia.

Valentine greetings were popular as far back as the Middle Ages (written Valentine's didn't begin to appear until after 1400), and the oldest known Valentine card is on display at the British Museum. The first commercial Valentine's Day greeting cards produced in the U.S. were created in the 1840s by Esther A. Howland. Howland, known as the Mother of the Valentine, made elaborate creations with real lace, ribbons and colorful pictures known as "scrap".

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!!