Dear YOU,

How are you lately? We haven't talk much ever since you decided to walk out of my life and bid forever goodbye. Things are going great with me, don't you worry a single bit :] Life now, well, its okay, average.. I managed to cope through loads of stuff. Little did you know, you still left a part of yourself inside of my life. A life that revolved around the both of us :] I can't stop you from leaving, because .. You and I were never meant to be. Being super popular amongst your friends, the ROSE amongst the bushes.. How'd you expect me to blend in with this sort of people? It's just not me. You know? I wished I would have told you earlier, but I didn't want to break your heart. I wont want to unleash my burden in my heart just to make mine lighter and yours broken. :( I do care for you really, sometimes just more than that.

Do you remember? Our little conversation ? I remembered every single one of it crystal clear :] We used to talk about almost everything. In class, sometimes I'd see you turn your head around, giving me that naughty look, I can't do much but just smile and blush. Nobody knew about us actually. Because in my head, I know this wasn't going to last, and you know what? my head was right all along :]

Give love a try. I never knew what was like to be in that sort of condition.I'd always dream of having that experience. Having someone out there watching over you, knowing that there's always somebody to watch your back. :] Do you remember? Someone was ridiculing me ( not in a bad way ) and you can't help but pushing that person's head? That moment. That VERY moment. I felt special. I felt somebody DO actually stand by my side. :] You made me feel like the happiest person on earth. :-] Deep down in my heart, you may not be the most appealing person I've known, but I know that in there *points at heart * is somebody with a BIG heart. :]

One fine day, you web chat me. You said its over. I can't help but feeling this day is gonna come. I can never make a commitment to you at such a tender age. I was naive. I know. Honestly, I knew this was coming all along, I just never thought it would actually last that long :] But still, you said everything you need to, and I truly accepted it :-] No hard feelings. I took it well, and said goodbye. :-] You ought to be free, and not just trapped in a cage.. you need to go out there and look for that certain someone who truly will be the one for you. You and I both know that this wasnt going to last. Naive we were and not to mention childish too xD You are one of the best people I have ever known, and all the memories we had together will continue to live with me forever.

Right now, everytime I see you, I don't know what to say. Hi? How are you? My mouth just clenched tight. I can only look at you for awhile and just look away. What else can I say? You walk past me and nudged me on the elbow. OUCH. But you made me realize something. Amidst of what emotional roller coaster we've been through, we're still good friends. And for that, I'm truly honoured to have met someone like you.

It was so many years ago, but still I can remember it with my eyes shut.

Thank you. For everything you did for me. Thank you. :-]

PS : YOU know who you are. :]

I lost

To : somebody who was once special to me

Exhaustion filled my limbs,

Weariness swept across me,

Weakened by the second.

I dropped my weapons,

Turned my back.

I've lost.

I've lost the battle.

Never have I thought,

Of seeing daylight again.

Over-confidence,

is a word to describe me.

I've abased you,

Thinking that it would be easy.

But I was wrong.

Now that you've unmasked yourself,

I can now truly see your true self.

Shame overshadowed me,

I cursed under my breath,

This was not meant to happen.

I've let my guard down,

and you've overpowered me.

I lost.

I've lost the battle.

Seeing you across the room,

triumphing, rejoicing over your victorious win.

You gathered your friends ( are they ? ),

bragging away like a conceited brute.

It burns my ears,

Just by hearing your words.

I can't help it,

but walked away.

I lost.

I've lost the battle.

YOU,

with your words like poison,

you shatter peoples heart into millions of pieces.

You don't even realize,

Every step and actions of yours,

is hurting somebody tremendously.

But you don't know,

what you don't know.

YOU!

keep your loud opinions to yourself,

because nobody really cares.

With your words like knives and swords,

you pierced my heart,

and left a scar behind.

Someday,

Somebody will turn the tables over.

You think you're innocent,

But your words slipped out of your fowl mouth,

and broke their heart.

It's not too late to change,

I thought you would,

But your numbness forbids you.

All this time,

I walk with my head held low,

trying to block you out of my sight.

But this time,

I held my head high,

and forced a weak smile,

telling myself " its alright "

This battle isn't over,

It's a new beginning.

The chapter may end now,

but the story goes on.

I lost.

I've lost the battle.

I looked up,

saw you across the room.

I'm not giving up just yet,

I'd rather die trying,

than to forfeit.

I may have lost,

but I'll triumph again.

Obstacles may come my way,

But I'll surpass them.

You may think you're the best,

but there's always somebody better than you.

Think about it.

I lost.

I've lost the battle.

Savour your victorious moments.

Because this girl is about to get you back!

I may have lost,

but everyday is a new day.

You motivate me,

making me better day by day.

I lost.

But we'll see in time,

who truly wins this battle.