WHEEEEEE

HEY HEY! how's it going? xD It's been so long since I last updated this blog.. well.. exams are over.. and I AM SOOOO RELIEVED! RAWR the exam this time seemed forever and non stop.. 2 whole weeks made it seemed like.. 2 whole months -.- I know I'm exaggerating.. but it does kinda feel like it. :( Well, enough said about the past.. now holiday's HERE!! finally.. 3 whole WEEKS~~

I feel like screaming at the top of my voice .. till my lungs can't breathe! :)))) constantly.. I'd still think that I'm dreaming.. and all of this just ain't real.. but it's real alright! HOLIDAYS ARE HERE!!! :))))

I am sooo DARN looking forward to vacation! :)) I so badly need one. I can't stand the heat here.. and it's driving me crazy every afternoon. The intense heat gets on my nerves and it makes the whole world turn upside down :( everything just don't seem right -.- Turning on the air conditioner every afternoon .. :P Heh, I rather it rain than the scorching heat -.-

-VACATION--VACATION--VACATION--VACATION--VACATION--VACATION--VACATION--VACATION--VACATION--VACATION--VACATION--VACATION--

Yeah.. these are the only words in the my mind now.. :) NZ !! here I COME! Hope I don't get jet lag -.- like last time -.- horrible horrible HORRIBLE -.-

WELL.. I'm off to do ENJOY myself now.. TATA

Miracle. Love. Friends. Silence.

A miracle had happened today :)

There are times I do wish,

That somehow I'd like to believe,

every problem faced,

can be solved,

with a blink of an eye.

The dew drops silhouetting against my window,

The dark and bright skies are playing collage,

I breathed out,

And my breath stained the car window with water.

I placed my hand on the car window.

It's cold.

It's morning.

It's Today.

No more delaying.

I had enough.

It ends today.

I was afraid.

I was timid.

I was scared.

I came in like the wind,

I knock on your door,

I see smiles,

but not yours.

I approached you,

I held your hands,

You were trembling,

I can feel it.

You stood up,

pat my shoulders,

and apologized.

It was a miracle.

God answered my prayers.

Friends,

they're everywhere.

But are they,

your true friends?

Friends,

come and go.

But true friends,

won't leave your heart.

Friends,

lend you a shoulder to cry on,

hugs you whenever you feel down,

make you smile again when you're sad.

Friends,

are the people,

whom you can count on,

trust,

believe,

rely...

Today was wonderful. A miracle happened. God answered my prayers :) I cannot believe what just happened just now. But, it DID happened. I never did believed in changing people by just talking.. I always have believed that we can make a difference by using forceful acts or forceful instructions. But I was wrong, because all along.. I never was exposed to all these.. but abruptly.. this happens.. and the feeling was.. AWESOME. :)

I had a super awesome day today.. DID YOU?

Miracles.

They don't happen just like that.

But,

They do happen,

When you least expect them to.

Miracles,

They don't fall from the sky,

They don't happen magically..

But,

It all starts from you.

Miracles,

has happened to thousands..

But,

It touches us ..

once in a life time.

Love empowers everything. No matter what the situation is. Love is the answer to all. I don't mean that puppy dog love -.-'' But, the love that someone can SHOW to the other in many ways.

Love can be trasmitted in many ways.. but the best way to show the LOVE you have for them.. is the silent way.

Silence is strong.

Silence is brave.

Silence is quiet.

Which symbolizes peace.

Love is quiet.

Love is sweet.

Love is kind.

Love is neat!

Love tells you,

the things you don't hear.

But touches you,

with silence. :)

Like I said, Life is difficult.

No one said it was going to be easy.

Yeah, it's true.

Now, Hope is all I can cling on to.

I came to you,

Out of nowhere,

Like the wind,

Knocking on your door.

Entering inside,

I see new faces.

I see smiles,

but not yours.

I came up to you

You were frightened in the inside,

but you never show it out.

Little did you know,

I was frightened too.

I never did say I'm giving up.

But I'll push myself to a whole new level.

The biggest challenge in life,

can be solved if you believe hard enough. :)

Everytime I closed my eyes,

I could only see your face.

When I'm not thinking about anything,

I could only think about you.

When I open my eyes,

All I can see is you.

I'm going to change you.

It's not impossible.

Nothing is impossible,

till you tried till the very end.

Sometimes, I do wanna blame myself. You know, taking up probation. It's like.. why did I even wanted to do this? Being one of the most HATED people in school. Well, I do admit sometimes my ego is a little over, but then, I'm constantly telling myself. Every step I've fallen, I'll get up and try again. I'm not going to call quits, I'm going to go through this till the very end. I believe I can, I believe I will.

It's not easy handling people.

You can't control them .. fact number 1.

You can't make them listen to you.... fact number 2.

You can't make them obey every single instructions you make... fact number 3.

My heart beat races,

Sweat dripping down my cheeks,

Fear clenched my teeth.

Unable to say a word.

Oh well, I was really really terrified and afraid at first. But now, I admit I am a little more daring now. Well, at least better than last week. Rome wasn't built in a day.. it all goes back to how TIME will change us :)

To all the other probationary out there.. I hope that eventhough you face many of those offenders who say or do stuff which made your self esteem lowered and confidence shattered, just remember.. Do NOT be afraid :) If FEAR is the one that's clenching you from doing all this.. be brave :)

Just like that,

The walls of my heart,

which once was surrounded with fear,

heard my sudden call.

Fear slowly disintegrate.

And there is none No More.

I stepped out,

Feeling proud and victorious,

Never again will I be shrewed,

I closed my eyes,

And I told myself..

I CAN.

And, I did

Fear.

After all of this is over,

You no longer conquer me.

No longer will you rule me.

I set the rules now.

I MAKE the decisions.

Fear.

Leave me alone.

I'm doing what's right.

If you can't except that.

Just leave.

I mustered a smile,

Because I know,

I feel good,

I feel awesome,

And my fears are dying away slowly.

I know,

I CAN do it :)

and I will

I'll never let you down. Not after what you have done for me. I won't do that to you. I promise :)